I've been struggling with a stupid crush for a few months now, only it's actually more than that. Because I've spent so much time thinking about it, I have categorised types of crushes:
'oh wow, they are cute and i would kiss them if they wanted me to'. notice me sempai. no big deal, fun.
obsessive and draining, you think about them all the time, constantly planning ways to see them, much social media stalking, but it's surface-level and your object of infatuation may be actually kind of a dick. if you actually spend any decent amount of time with them it wears itself out.
wholesome, fuzzy, glowy appreciation for all that this person is. what all the songs are about, best drug on planet. this can pretty much only happen if they reciprocate.
I thought I was infatuated with a side of worsening mental health, but no, I'm in love with him and have been for a while. And he feels the same way, and it can't happen for so many reasons, and I can't talk about it with anyone.
What I actually came here to say was that I've spent a lot of time on dress-up games, the couple dress-ups are the ones i find particularly therapeutic. It helps gently underline that the idea of us being together is firmly in fantasy land and won't really happen.
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There's some edge lord I used to talk to and the more I began to hate him the more attractive he became, and even though he was interested in me, I knew he was also a manhoe and he will never change so I want him to die. One time he was in my city and needed somewhere to stay, I laughed and told him to die in the streets and didn't let him come to my house, instead of spending this perfect opportunity with my crush, I spent the whole weekend in my pyjamas, eating tendies and watching anime. I've ignored his past few messages because he's a narcissist and thinks everyone wants him but I'm still majorly attracted to him and want him to love me REEEEEE