the only thing good about being neet is that no ones around, otherwise i cant stand sitting on my ass doing nothing and not getting paid.
its nice to be able to sleep or sit outside and smoke whenever i want though. early mornings are cozy after a long boring night
Three years ago I had just ended a relationship with my ex who abused me sexually and verbally. This was also my first relationship so I was struggling with how to handle it. I kept worrying he'd be the only guy that would love me, but i dumped him and it wasn't worth being abused like that.
My depression got worse and worse, I lost a lot of friends because I started acting like an asshole (and also from some drama another person sparked that made me lose 5 friends at once. One of them came out years later and told me she thought that was awful of them looking back on it and apologized at least).
I finally told my family i wanted to see a therapist. I was just waking up, going to work, coming home, doing fuck all, sleeping, going to work, etc. I felt miserable, and stuck and I didn't know what to do. I was trapped at my family's house (moms a hoarder, family overall was very verbally abusive because no one is happy, i swear i think it's the house but that's another story).
So when I brought up therapy my brother chimed in, YELLING at me, telling me I was faking it for attention and didn't need a therapist.
So I didn't see a therapist.
Almost committed suicide. When the cops showed up at the house and at my job after a friend called them worried about me all my grandpa said was that it was "embarassing" but my mom gave a shit for once. Everyone very easily accepted my story of "my friend misunderstood something I said" though which kind of hurt and I was left alone with my thoughts again.
Maybe not the same kind of story everyone else is sharing but it feels nice to get it off my chest since this period of my life isn't easy to talk about. My husband doesn't even know the whole story and I haven't even shared half of it here.
Luckily I'm better now. I still have depression but it's managable and I have friends now who understand it, my anxiety, and my introversion and don't judge me when I tell them I'm too tired to be around people and shit. I hope everyone can find friends this understanding too.