I was raised into this life where the woman has to be submissive to the male. My father wouldn't let me go to college because he said college shouldn't be wasted on women because they're not intelligent enough.
If I were to dump him, I would be scolded for screwing everything up and I have tried once before.
I figured the best way out would be to end this life which I figure I'll get to when I have enough for a good gun.
I do want to make a note: People shouldn't consider all guys pedophiles. I've met a few guys who have gotten very excited over older women because they considered their maturity a foil to their own immaturity. But for men who spend too much time on the internet and only get a glimpse of a person through their appearances through photos, they would choose whichever seems the most flawless (lacking wrinkles, sunspots, etc.) and those tend to be younger people.
I was constantly being spammed with shit about this dancer named Jojo who seems to be a big pedobait right now where people have tried to stalk here and even held a poll where she received top-place over a bunch of adults, receiving backlash from a lot of concerned women in comments claiming that whoever keeps voting a 14 year old for the hottest woman in the list was sick, etc. etc. My biggest concern was why I kept being spammed with her shit on my pinterest to the point where I had to delete it because blocking it wasn't working.