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No. 204455

ITT we discuss our times having unhealthy obsessions with people. It can be any kind of obsession; romantic, hateful, wanting to wear their skin, etc.

I have an extreme tendency to cyber stalk girls I strongly dislike. The first girl I did this with was my ex best friend as a teenager. I actually found her tumblr recently and she had a few posts that seemed to be referencing me, even though it had been many years since I last contacted her.

There's been a few other girls I watch a lot online. Usually when one enters my interest, they stay there for a really long time until they start to bore me. I stalked the previously mentioned girl for 11 years and there's one who I have been for 7. Everyone else is much more recent, though.

I also stalk a few social media "influencers". It always starts out with me liking them too much and concocting this bizarre narrative of how we would be friends, but then as time goes by I start to dislike them quite a bit. I compete with them, at least in my head. With a couple of them, it's gotten so extreme that I'll have brief delusional episodes where I forget I'm not actually in their social sphere and they have no idea I even exist.

No. 204459

>>204455
I was never a very popular person; always kept to myself etc. Since i was very young i've always had ne person, whom i looked up to, whether it was a pretty friend, some adult, a fictional chara or a celebrity.
I feel like i don't have any personality of my own, i only let myself get influenced by others; also to the point, like you said, of somehow copying them a bit. For examply there was a girl i founfd really pretty and seh was popular as well and accidently we became friends and from than on i always copyied her clothing style.
When it's about people i don't know in real life i always daydream about them, hold imaginary conversations etc.
If i don't have such a person i admire, i always kinda fel lost, like i don't know how to act, to dress etc.
My dream would be to find out what my own personality really is like, to have an own type of style

No. 204465

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This one time i found out where a person lives and started to go at nights to look at that person's house in hope i would see that person in a window. I just don't know how to talk to people i really like.

No. 204469

When you obsess over a person and start to idealise them then they can only let you down when you get to know them for real.

I have tend to low key stalk people who don't have many friends and have niche hobbies or fetishes or something about them that makes them feel different. I like outsider types, it probably plays into my need to be seen as fun and outgoing like some magic pixie dream girl when in actuality I'm boring and a bit of a loner myself. It always turns out that these people already have friends or that they're not interested in knowing me. Or the nice quiet guys just turn out to be angry r9k jerks.

No. 204479

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I stalk an ex-teacher's social media, printed out a lot of his photos to keep in a book about him and write all about him (like his address, family, license plate, dates where he switched jobs, moved, etc). I gave him gifts and watched his house once after class to see when he would get home after his other errands (and wrote it down ofc). We talk often and we hung out once. I've had a couple of breakdowns sobbing on the floor when I would think about his family or when I feel like my pursuit is at a standstill. Things I post on social media are geared towards what he would appreciate so that he will "Like" it.

Idk reading my notebook of him and my thoughts calms me down. But sometimes I want to kill him so this shit will end and so I can be close to him and watch him go.

We send each other music a lot though and talk about really interesting things that no one else understands. I feel sorry for him that he's already settled down before realizing that I would be perfect, seriously.

No. 204485


No. 204488

>>204459
>>204479
Some of you need a mental check-up, wtf.

No. 204492

>>204479
I'm calling the guards

No. 204497

>>204488
The topic of this thread is unhealthy obsessions with people, the need for psychiatric intervention is a given.

No. 204501

When I was underaged I hit the peak of my underlying mental illnesses and completely obsessed for some months over an online friend that was emotionally abusive to me. I don't want to go into detail, but I was absolutely batshit insane.
As I've grown up and received help for my issues I have never felt that way again and I don't think I will. Just looking and speaking to me you really would never guess how I was.

No. 204509

this entire thread both fascinates me and makes me incredibly anxious

No. 204510

>>204501
Change that to some years and you could be my ex girlfriend. I hope she got the same help you did.

No. 204512

I don't stalk anyone for extended periods of time.
At worst, it's in "bursts".
Like they are some people I know that I really admire or am attracted to, and every few months I will google their names or emails or usernames, saving a few of their pictures and bookmarking links.
I know it's creepy as fuck but I can't help it. I am just intrinsically interested in some people and want to know them but can't…

No. 204516

I get really obsessed with classmates, actors, social media people, etc., and then I cyberstalk them a bit but I'm usually over it in a couple of months at most. I don't really have any close platonic or romantic relationships so this is pretty much how I deal with that I guess lol.

No. 204520

>>204501
I did the same to an ex friend and at one point logged into on old Facebook profile of hers that she had her main added from so I could watch her even more closely. Now I'm in a relationship with someone who is as batshit as I am and we can stalk each other but neither of us care so I guess things work out in the end.

No. 204521

>>204520
>Now I'm in a relationship with someone who is as batshit as I am and we can stalk each other but neither of us care so I guess things work out in the end.
What's the motivation? Some fear that they might cheat if you don't watch them?

No. 204524

I used to be really obsessed with a guy who lives near me because he seemed to be an alt loner guy and I was too shy to ever approach him, I tried to kill myself once because I thought he hated me for whatever reason (we've never properly interacted) thank fuck I started getting treatment for my mental illnesses and realized dudes a total r9k loser.

No. 204528

>>204521
No actually. I was more or less joking, its just that both of us are possessive and obsessive. I think he stalks me more than I do him. . It is a good feeling to be in love with someone who is as mentally ill as you. I've never had that before and I've just frightened people away even when I didn't mean to. It's been a few years now though so.. I guess what I'm saying is there's definitely someone out there for literally every person.

No. 204543

>>204512
are you me? i do this with my SO's ex (save for bookmarking and saving pictures), but i thrive on the schadenfreude.

we're living our dream in japan, have money, in school, and everything we could want while she's still living with her parents, no education higher than middleschool, can't drive, mooching off of her current bf that she cheated with so she can buy clothes, etc.

No. 204544

>>204528
haha anon, that's cute in a weird way.

>>204455
hmm I definitely have unhealthy obsession with a Youtuber. He's not that big, he's pretty stable on around 120k views per vid. I follow him for two years now and definitely know more than a normal fan, and when he liked my comment on instagram (he hardly ever likes any) I experienced the biggest rush of endorphines in my whole life, I shit you not. Won't go into detail because it's all pretty generic, everyone and their mother is obsessed with a ytber nowadays.

Last year I crushed on someone I would see often on the bus. I started to remember hours he commuted and if I could, I would pick the same time. I once heard him talk with a friend about studying and figured out what he studies. I found his major's timetable. The luck was very strong with me, I would often bump into him in the city, like taking the tram or eating out.
I found him randomly on fb. So now I knew his name, school, major, and I checked his likes… crush mission aborted, he liked a political party with disgusting views, that every edgelord basement dweller in my country supports.
That was a punch, but I thought maybe he did like it ironically… (sure Jan) He also liked bunch of restaurants, they were all in the same area, with the knowledge about the trams he was taking, I figured out where he lived.
Ohhh and I also found out where he lives in our hometown, partly by an accident, partly by being a stalker

The thought that he's a total r9k loser as in >>204524 story caused the obsession to wear off, also I was trying to snap out of it because I wasn't going to make any move, so why would I tire myself more with this pathetic crush. Moving on was the only reasonable step to take
And here I am, half a year later, free of this tiresome feeling. God how I hate crushes, especially the spiralling ones

No. 204546

>boyfriend has been involved with only two girls before me
>know one of the girls, check her tumblr and instagram multiple times a day, send her rude anon messages sometimes when I'm jealous of her
>don't know the other girl, stalk the first girl's tumblr (they were friends) until I find her secret tumblr full of nsfw pics and her deepest thoughts (she deleted it though)
>check both of them on facebook regularly
>I know these two random girls better than I know my boyfriend

The worst part is that his involvements with these girls were literally five or six years ago and I'm still continuing this behaviour today lol

No. 204563

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I'm obsessed with an infamous "celebrity" that no one should be obsessed with because of his views and what he's done. I use the term celebrity loosely here since he's pretty under the radar. I don't even know why I'm in love with him so intensely even though I acknowledge all of his faults and wrongdoings.

I've reached out to him and got his attention before to the point where he blocked me on his social media (i said some ridiculous, inappropriate stuff to him for lulz) and that's the closest I've gotten to him since he lives on the other side of the world. I've collected old newspaper articles about him and all his first pressed cds, tapes, and records. I also have a journal I made specifically for him and I write about romantic scenarios, love poems, and decorate it with cute stickers and pictures of his face. I check up on his social media everyday, think about him at work, look at pictures of him multiple times a day, and I fantasize about him before I go to sleep every night. No one else has ever come close to making me feel this way.

No. 204604

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I hate spy on my ex 'bestie' from my late high school and early 20s too. Mostly to laugh about her shamble of a life and what a dramatic cock she is.

She wasn't ever really my true friend, I just realized she wasn't after years of my family and friends warning me that she was a jealous bitch just using me.
She used me for car rides, routinely 'borrowed' aka stole my shit and never gave it back claiming she 'lost' them, always showed up for my parties but was never around when I wasn't fun, begged me to buy her shit, and specifically would ask to take her to my college campus so she could man hunt. She was a teen mom on welfare and she was always looking for a man with money so she wouldn't have to keep working at Taco Bell full time.
I think the final straw that made me push her away was when for my 21st birthday she suggest that I buy her and the other user 'friends' I had at the time a party bus so they could drink. Lol, yeah, I was totally going to shell for her to have fun on my own fucking birthday. I would always buy her nice gifts for birthdays/holidays but I wouldn't be given so much as a card in return.

I only stalk her fb, but here's just a small sampling of her cow antics throughout the years:

>Claimed she was assaulted by a 'old man with a white beard' while out 'jogging,' and that the attacker stole her engagement ring. A police report was published that said she had lied about the incident for attention and was undergoing mental evaluation. Later on her fb, she reposted the digital article saying how she was being slandered by police and tried to drum up support, but ultimately she deleted all posts of the incident and never brought it up again.


>Became an extreme munchie claiming that she would have random attacks of unknown pain that required her to go to the ER and have many tests/scans done. She would post pictures and updates to fb for attention as if she were dying of cancer. When the local hospital staff started to shame her for her false alarm antics, she turned munchausen by proxy. She would let her son develop nasty infections, in odd places like behind his ears, until he needed to be taken to the hospital for treatment. Then she'd post statuses asking for prayers for her sick child. However, she stopped doing these things when she discovered that she wasn't getting the kind of attention she wanted from constant hospital visits and that it made her look like a negligent mother. Had a hunch that CPS got involved and it spooked her.


>Got a bunch of disgusting, shitty tattoos of things she thought would make her look more cultured and fun when she has a shallow understanding of said things and not much personality. The tattoos make her look even more hideous. She has no personality and interests of her own and latch on to whatever hobbies and likes her men or friends have because she doesn't know how to enjoy things that don't draw attention from others.


>Has animals in her filthy home that just makes her already dirty home even more filthy. Complains about being tight on money but acts like she's entitled to pets even though the pets would be better served in a more stable environment. Once she reported a series of incidents where she was claiming someone was killing her cats as she let them outside, but my tinfoil is that she was killing them herself for attention so as to be rid of them without making herself seem incapable and getting more pittance attention.


>She just separated her first marriage of two and a half years. Which is ironic considering she was constantly posting bullshit about how they were 'so happy' together, but evidently they were just trying to convince themselves they loved each other. On fb she claimed the husband had a change of feelings a couple months ago, but it's obvious the husband realized he saddled with an ugly loser who didn't want to work. It's hard supporting two kids on welfare and a pizza guy salary, and her less-than-20-hours-a-week PCA gig. She had a new child with this man too, so now she has two kids from different men.


Yeah, I'm a little obsessed. I probably know too much about her life for a person who's so inconsequential in mine these days. I guess it's a little fun having my own personal cow to gossip about.

No. 204605

>>204604
One more for funsises

>For her shotgun marriage to that guy, she didn't have enough money to pay for her own ceremony and honeymoon. So she created a patreon begging people for something in the ballpark of $5-10k. Naturally, nobody gave her shit because she wasn't entitled to a damn wedding ceremony. Plus the money would've been better spent on any other aspect of her life, like buying her first car for instance. Anyway, she wound up having the ceremony on a drab day at the local beach full of dying fish, high wind, and debris. She had only one video that had her obese mother breathing heavily in the background as she recorded, but the video was later deleted from her page. It was really embarrassing. I think her honeymoon was dinner at the Hard Rock.

No. 204607

>>204546
The only reason I don't do that is because the girls arent really too present online and don't even have Facebook or anything

I feel you anon

No. 204608

>>204524
>thank fuck I started getting treatment for my mental illnesses and realized dudes a total r9k loser.
The idea that people are stalking someone and then try to paint them as the loser is something I find funnier than I probably should.

No. 204610

I used to have an assburgers-style fixation on an actor because he guest starred like twice as an obscure character I already had Special Interest (again the assburger variety) in on a show for nerds. I think because he was actually kind of hot and I was just starting to like boys as well that didn't help.
I'm better now but still check the guy's imdb page like once every couple years.

No. 204612

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I am obsessed with this half Indian / half white girl from NYC who constantly posts about her shitty life on reddit. She reminds me of how I would have ended up if I was ugly and with shitty parents, I guess.

>Is 30 years old and a virgin

>Never had a bf
>Is ugly (by her own words) but says she is not attracted to the few guys who message her online
>Has a college degree but never has never had a real job
>Complains about living with her dad and supposedly BPD mom but says she can't move out
>Considered being a "little" (as in a dd/lg thing)

I find her posts fascinating because she is pretty eloquent and her posts are pretty detailed. She does have a shitty life, but I think she is lacking perspective (because she seems to think that EVERYONE is living a upper middle class successful NYC lifestyle even though there are tons of poor people in the city). I do think she should start a blog.

She also posted about how she wished I was "hit by a bus" lol

No. 204617

>>204604
>>204605
I did find your stories amusing. I appreciate you sharing them with the class.

>>204608
I agree

No. 204619

>>204608
>>204617
I mean this is a website founded on the premise of e-stalking drama whores who post on the internet, so…

No. 204620

>>204619
Except most of these people arent even drama whores. I'm not going to cry tears for someone like Onision because he makes his own hell. Most of the targets on this thread just lived their own life but someone mentally ill decided to obsess over them for some trivial reason.

No. 204630

I do this to lots of people. For different reasons. Sometimes I'm just interested to see how much I can find out about someone's life, like a private investigator. I don't do anything with the information, but it's kind of like a hobby and it's interesting how one little insignificant thing that the other person mentions can allow me to Google so much information about them and they don't suspect a thing. It gives me thrill to see how much I can research people online.

I used to have a bunch of online friends about 10 years ago now but we've since moved on from that interest and I haven't spoken to either of them directly in years. It would be weird for me to message them out of nowhere (I still have other ways of contacting them) and strike up a conversation, plus I know the interaction would just end up being awkward because we haven't spoken in so long. Like I'm trying to relive the good old days when we were friends and used to talk about the mutual interest. So I'm not going to put myself or them through that conversation.

However I do kinda stalk and watch the girls online on their public blogs and twitters etc. I check it every day, sometimes multiple times. They don't really talk to one another either as far as I know. As for why? Well, it makes me feel less alone, for one. I don't really have any friends in real life and haven't had much like finding another fandom that was as fulfilling as that one, so to follow these two girls, that are around my age by the way, still keeps me connected to that happy time in my life when I had online friends. I dearly wish I could go back to the time in my life when we all first met online and just relive that time in my life again.

And to also compare their lives to mine. It makes me feel a bit better to know that they have gone through the same struggles as me in life. I've been diagnosed as Aspie and I'm preeeeety sure both of them would as well, which is probably why we were all so obsessive over our fandom and one of the reasons why I obsess over them now. It also makes me feel less of a loser to see them interested in childish things when because I feel less bad about it when I do the same.

Another reason is because I wish I lived in their country and had a life like theirs, and had loving families like they do. So I can sort of live through their online blogs in a way. I think I'd be lying if I said I didn't have a crush on either one of them, but my feelings aren't that strong to be honest. I'd love to be friends with them in real life but all of my online friends never live in my city or even state.

Another reason I do this is because it's just one of my Aspie hobbies/obsessions. When I get into things, I get into it deep and with commitment. I don't really have a lot going in my life and don't have the energy to do anything offline. So it's like gossip and drama to follow someone's life without having to expand much energy of your own. Plus it's reassuring and gives me comfort to follow these girls and no matter what happens year after year I know I can look at their twitters and see what they're up to.

No. 204633

I just get weirdly obsessed with people I don't know but feel a "connection" to sometimes.
I don't think it's that weird, it's like having a favourite actor and watching all their movies and saving all their pictures, or reading everything and every interview by an author, etc.
Tons of people do it, why is it weirder because that person isn't famous and you sort of know them?

No. 204634

>>204633
Samefagging, well I do think it's probably a symptom of a personality disorder… generally people who obsess over a person like that are not stable in their "self" for sure.

No. 204638

There was a girl who I met online and sort of knew since she was a part of the same forum that I was. I looked up to her and thought she was so funny and cool. I have tried over and over to find out more about her but her username was only ever used on that forum plus a couple of other forums then that's it. I have read every post of hers on all of her forums. I do wonder what she is up to now and am kicking myself that I can't cyber stalk her. She stopped posting on those accounts years ago. Probably better for her sake I can't find her, not that I'd really do anything with anything I'd find though.

No. 204643

I'll occasionally stalk my ex or my boyfriend's exes online. The former because he's an actual psycho and I don't want him posting about / doxxing me anywhere like he's done before. But I dunno I just wanna see what my bf's type is and why he was interested in certain people. Twitter/Tumblr is usually the easiest place to stalk teenage/college girls but Tumblr's dying and Twitter's not insanely popular where I live. I'm pretty good at finding out people's usernames.

Lowkey I think my boyfriends' exes get obsessed with me too. One accidentally liked my photo years ago and then blocked me lol. I was talking to a new friend at a party in the summer and I found out that two of them knew my name, even though we don't post anywhere that we're dating (only started a few months ago), the girls, him, and I don't really share friends, and I've never seen them around campus. More recently one of them added me on IG, and tonight her close friend did. I feel kind of smug but also weirded out.

No. 204646

oh god, i'm so glad i'm not the only one who's weird like this.
i've done this with 2 celebrities (watching and reading basically anything about them ever) and now my teacher. but god, i hate it, i feel so embarrassed just thinking about it. i'm trying to stop obsessing over my teacher right now, but i see her everyday and she's such an inspiration to me, it's so hard. i'm trying not to be weird and obvious, but i do admit i've walked the dog near her house and went to the shops she goes to more than i should have. i have stopped that now, but the thoughts are still there.

why do you think you guys do it?

i'm not quite sure, i think it stems from idolising the person, maybe being in a weird kind of love with them? i don't think i would like to do anything sexual with her, but i do like the thought of being… taken care of? loved? idk.
nobody would ever guess i'm like this (i look normal and i NEVER talk about it) but i am. there are some good things about it, although far and few between. i started trying to get better grades, reading much more, i'm learning french (she teaches literature and french…) and i'm thinking about pursuing a career in philology or teaching languages.
also, the rush you get from thinking about seeing them is pretty great AND addictive.
(but the guilt, oh god, the guilt!)

No. 204648

sometimes i imagine I'm with the person I'm obsessing over, or even sometimes pretend I am them while I"m doing totally normal shit like washing the dishes or grocery shopping lol it's so embarassing to type out. I think I do it becuase like this anon >>204646
said the rush you get from thinking about them is addictive and also I think I do the roleplay thing because I don't have much personality of my own so adopting someone else's that I admire, even just internally, gives me more confidence.

No. 204649

reading these replies helps me understand why some anons come off as unhinged in their posts on /snow/ and /pt/

No. 204669

I've only looked up old classmates a few times to see how they're faring. I also check people's Facebook pages if I'm crushing on them and want to see if they're single. I'll maybe Google someone who used to be close to me if I can't find them through normal means, or a celebrity if someone tells me I look like them so I can see what kind of makeup would suit me. Otherwise no, I think if you know you behave badly you should get therapy.

No. 204680

>>204646
>why do you think you guys do it?

I'm >>204479 and I do it because I love him and it's also an escape to daydream of a life with him. I think my loneliness and lack of close friends or family causes me to have an obsession to engulf myself into. I also wish I could be picked up and put into an established person's life to care for them, cook, clean, do everything and also talk about things that others don't appreciate, study our favorite subject together, etc. just make their life easier and happier.

>the rush you get from thinking about seeing them

Absolutely. It's like falling into the feeling of puppy love over and over. Everyone else is disappointing.

>>204648
That's a pretty good idea. Sometimes I think of him being there or as if I'm talking to him while I'm going about my life, or hear him in my head when going through something rough.

No. 204685

I'm at the point where the thrill of one of my stalkees updating with something worthwhile is just a few steps below sex.

>>204649
Between this, the mental health threads, and how batshit so many anons seem in /pt/ and /snow/, it seems clear that this place is a magnet for psychos. Not shocked, given the nature of the site.

No. 204737

>>204646
>why do you think you guys do it?
OP here. I do it because seeing those I dislike being worse off in life than me makes me feel better about my own pathetic situation.

As for the "internet influencers", it's because I have hardly any friends and none that I share certain important interests with, so pretending these girls are my friends somewhat fills that void.

No. 204773

Mine is the typical obsess over certain "celebrities", but the crushes I develop are so incredibly intense that that majority of my day is spent thinking about them. I like imagining myself being romantically involved with a character they've played in a movie, saving hundreds of pictures of them, reading self-insert fanfics, etc. I think its become some sort of addiction, honestly. I often get excited for the next person I can obsessively crush over to where its the only thing I look forward to. I've been this way since I was 11. Whats strange is that I've never felt this way about anyone in my own life… probably for the better.

No. 204783

I think part of the reason for my obsessions is that I never really get crushes IRL because I'm a bit of a recluse and I don't really get lonely being single. I think the obsession is a way for my brain to make up for that with fantasy.

>>204773
>I like imagining myself being romantically involved with a character they've played in a movie
I do this one all the time lol.

No. 204840

>>204516
Lol we are the same. I'll go from thinking about them 24/7 to never thinking about them again in a few days' time. I know it's unhealthy and would never contact the person, but I just can't help it sometimes. Like you stated, this is how I deal with occasional loneliness due to no close relationships. I never thought about it that way before, but it makes sense! Have you ever obsessed over someone without knowing what they look like?

No. 204989

>>204612
I'm so curious about this person's username. I'd love to stalk their post history.

No. 205005

I do get obsessed with all kinds of stuff, it usually last a few days up to a few weeks and I'm doing it since my preteen years. When me and my bf got together 2 years ago, my brain took a 1 1/2 year break from being obsessed with all kinds of things, but now it is stronger than ever. Before a few days it was 50s fashion, so I ordered a bunch of stuff online to try on. The weeks before that it was veganism and the weeks before that is was vampirism/oocult shit and artsy stuff. Now I am rewatching old anime series from my teens and I am falling into that old habit were I get obsessed about characters and imagining every free minute how my life in this world with them would be. Then, after a few days I usually get depressed and think about killing myself until I get to watch a new show and obsess over new characters. I am rn in the depressed stage. Btw before that it was Daenerys Targaryen - holy cow, I was so close to go full platinum blonde and ruin my hair. I am kind of glad, that the sexy bishies took over.

No. 205009

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I keep a folder of links to social media and side accounts (even dead accounts) of my own personal lolcows. i check it nearly everyday for good milk and when i find it, i shit talk about how dumb they are to my friends, who usually know who they are too. i take screencaps of their stupidest moments, save a few pictures of their faces or fanart they've drawn, and dig thru their comments and reblogs to find quality milk. ive even looked up some of their addresses before just to see what their houses looks like so that i can make fun of it. i make sure to pick cows that are at least over the age of 21 (teens doing cringy shit isn't fun cuz yeah they're teens), and are genuinely awful people but they're so deluded that they don't even realize it, because it produces the best content. basically this site, but in private. i think of it like checking a celebrities twitter, only for people i hate. my friend and i sometimes make it a special occasion, when one of our cows messes up big time, we get drunk and have a great time laughing at them all night long. none of them are popular enough (except for holly brown) to warrant their own thread. i don't feel bad for hating them whatsoever. i think of them as examples to be the exact opposite of, even refusing to buy clothes i think they would wear, music i think they would listen to, etc (most of the stuff their into is gaming music and lootcrate fashion anyway, nothing i like). ive only interacted with them lesser than a handful of times, but when i do, it produces the best milk. i'll barely say 5 words to them and they have a lulzy virtuous rant-fest, its great. i know i should feel bad for doing all this, but i honestly don't. they need a reality check, and while i think i could probably step in and give them some advice on how not to be a cringy asshole, i'd rather laugh at their mistakes.

No. 205012

>>204563
i'm intensely curious, who is it? or at least what kinda celebrity is he, like, musician or something?

>>204638
if you think she kept in touch with any other users of these forums, find their social media accounts and find her through their friends, maybe there will be something?

No. 205033

My obsession are my ex boyfriends, my ex best friend and all of my current boyfriends ex's. I had to get to a point where I had to block his ex gfs because I couldn't stop creeping their social media, getting myself all worked up. I've had to block my exes too, but will always end up unblocking them to get a good creep session in, idk why I'm obsessed with people who make me upset to creep… it's like a form of self harm lol it's addicting..

No. 205109

I've been obsessed with this girl online for maybe 5 yrs now. Like, I look at her social media multiple times a day and have a love/hate relationship with her because we're similar in a lot of ways but she also has some really annoying opinions. I also think she is beautiful and I am a bit envious.

She actually lives in my city and we walked past each other before and I felt like such a creep lmao

No. 205118

>>205033
I'll creep my bfs exes too, but I'm the opposite, it makes me feel better lol

No. 205119

>>205118
same…maybe this is cucky but it's somehow affirming to see his cute exes. like i have good taste and am at least as cute/desirable as those girls. when i was a teen i was super jealous so i never would have felt that way. idk exactly what changed.

No. 205122

Every day I check/stalk an ex-RP partner's character blogs and eat up her misery. Sometimes I'll check multiple times a day, 10-15 times or more. I even put a google analytics on my blog so I know when she's looking at mine (I know her state/city). I eagerly await her posts and I'm always disappointed when there isn't anything new.

She used to be THE writer of a certain character, like she was always #1 when somebody made a list of "top 5 [x]". Everybody in the fandom knew her and people licked her ass nonstop, feeding into her huge ego. I played the other half of her favorite ship and that basically meant she owned me I guess. I cut her out of my life when I finally realized everything was about her. She would convince me to send her money for nonexistent emergencies and guilt me/threaten suicide if I dared step away from roleplay to tend to my real life and actual job. The fallout was phenomenal because she tried to drag my reputation through the mud but everyone else had also had enough of her petty shit so they turned on her. She bawwed she wouldn't RP with anybody that RPd with me but never backed up her claims because everyone ignored her bullshit and kept RPing with me. My name will forever live on in her trigger list, probably forever.

She's mostly stopped posting on all of her accounts and but when she's on she cries about how nobody will RP with her and she does't have any GOOD friends anymore. Goddamn I love it so much and I'm so sad she doesn't post as much as she used to. I've tried to become an internet detective and find where she's roleplaying now but I can't come up with anything.

Brb going to check again.

No. 205189

>>204989
Glad someone else is interested lol

https://www.reddit.com/user/vcardthrow1

A lot of her posts are hidden because she posts on a private community

I used to have a bunch of her posts saved because I was going to do a writeup, but I deleted it. I think she deleted some posts, like the one where she complained about her parents but wasn't able to move out.

No. 205202

>>205189
has she ever posted a pic of herself?

No. 205205

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>>205202
Of all my time stalking her, no she has not. I feel like she is probably genuinely ugly since she has cystic acne.

I feel like there are people on reddit who would try to go out with her on account of her having a vag without even seeing her pic. But I feel like her standards are too high. I feel like she hates men, so I'm not sure why she is so concerned with dating in the first place.

Here's an example of one of her hidden posts

No. 205207

>>205205
I haven't seen all her posts so I don't know the depth of her personality as you do anon, but reading that it sounds like she hates herself so god damn much that she's just given up on everything. It's easier to be a self-loathing piece of shit convinced that one can't change than to make herself vulnerable by trying to get out in the world.
I'm sure men make her feel the most insecure, and because she tried to trust the online one who she felt wronged her, she figures any other man will treat her similarly.

It's like a female version of a robot.

No. 205209

>>205205
It's like r/incels in a parallel universe
Amazing

No. 205210

>>205209
That's not fair, incels are far more entitled and openly spew misogynistic vitriol. This girl complaining about her poor health and unemployment says all she asks from that dude is 'online camaraderie'. All incels ask of women is to be perfect 10/10 virgins with no standards who will marry them despite their many glaring flaws.

No. 205211

>>205210
Also I'm reading her comments and this is definitely not an incel attitude, the post she was replying to was deleted but I think 'enforced monogamy' explains it all
>But this wasn't about "a woman you like". And even if I dislike to think of my crushes fucking women other than me - I don't own them. We're not even in a relationship, they owe me nothing.
>"Sexual liberation functions like runaway capitalism and breeds intense inequality for people like us who just want an equal share in the opportunity to find a partner." We're not entitled to partners and forced coupling could be involved but that doesn't mean anyone would love or desire us more.
>"I've never come across a valid argument against enforced monogamy" Okay, so you're just nuts, I could have saved myself some energy.
>You're the selfish one. A relationship is not like a job. You don't seem to understand people have free will and bodily sovereignty.
>And I say this as a bulldog faced ogress that will probably die without a man kissing me. You just sound ridiculous.

No. 205256

>>205211
I want to hug her.

No. 205279

>>205205
Just looking up her username, I see an Instagram profile of a girl with a wider jaw and also a myproana profile. These might be her?

No. 205280

>>205279
lol never mind, that was the OP of the thread

No. 205292

>>205256
Ummm idk why anyone would want to do that b/c she seems like a bitch to me. But you should go message her.

>>205210
I don't think she is really like an incel lol

As for poor health, I've had similar problems. To me it sounds like she has depression but has wrecked her body and made her problems worse by taking shit care of her body.

No. 206120

For about a decade I've had this weird off-and-on obsession/hatred for a person I knew on deviantart. I found her when I was about 16 on some other website and looked her up on DA.

She was a particular girl. Younger than me, but a gifted artist. Even now, her old art is still better than most of what I can do. She used to obsessively draw and write fanfics over her ridiculous mary sue self-insert OC and I ate it right up. On one hand, I was incredibly jealous of her skills. On the other, she felt like my own personal lolcow. Once she started uploading selfies to her scraps the hatred/obsession went into overdrive as she was gorgeous. She was the sort of girl who would claim to have the heritage of at least 10 races, and I am not exaggerating. You'd think she had 15 parents. She also claimed to be biracial, which may have been true. My stalking uncovered that while her father is black, her mother is biracial, making her 3/4ths black American. She only seemed to claim black when it put her above other black people. All other times, she was black and a slew of other ethnicities, which she got away with due to her medium skin tone and long hair.

She was incredibly arrogant as well. Sometimes passive-aggressively, sometimes not. She made it no secret that she knew how good looking she was, and how her art skills were above the vast majority of people her age. She openly called herself a prodigy and bragged about her mother's high-paying job and the stuff she'd done. I assumed some of it was bull since some of her 'stories' sounded an awful lot like some of her fanfics. LIke when she claimed to have had a short romance in with a hot Japanese guy when she was in Japan for a relative's wedding. She said he called her his "little Ameriie". BTW, Ameriie is a singer who happens to be Korean and black.

She fancied herself a writer, claiming that was her real passion. Her talent there was strange. Her earlier writing was absolute tryhard garbage. As she got older, the readability improved past borderline My Immortal territory, but even now I can't see her ever finding non-offline success. Ironically, that's what she'd prefer to do. According to her, her art has only ever brought her drama and problems. I guess I can see why. She had a bad problem with art theft that made her eventually throw in the towel.

When I was in my late teens, I on a whim decided to message her on DA. She sent me her Yahoo and from then on we'd chat a bit here and there. Even though I had boyfriends and friends I'd go out with a lot, speaking to her was the highlight of my night. I'd even duck out of hanging out with my real life friends to go and chat with her. Her personality was much milder and humbler than I expected, but I knew it was probably false modesty. I never let her know how close an eye I was keeping on her and she seemed to like me quite a lot. She called me intelligent and pretty and assumed I was much older from how I spoke. When I found out her full name, I googled it looking for more info on her. I ended up with a Facebook, a couple of youtube accounts and several dead social media accounts she'd made for her mary sue. I scoured and collected them all. I couldn't have enough info on her.

One of her trademark traits was her overanalysis of her favorite things. To an autistic degree, leaving these long-winded and pretentious paragraphs under every piece of art or writing or journal she uploaded. I thought it was cringe as fuck, she tried way too hard to sound smart and verbose but devoured it anyway. I loved it without the tiniest bit of irony. I loved her overly dramatic attempts and creating romance out of nothing, those TLDR paragraphs I'd read through multiple times. I especially loved how she couldn't help but self-insert into every female fictional character she took a shine to. Everyone she liked turned into her, and she thought of herself as this irresistible yet incredibly intelligent bombshell guys were always fighting over. I thought it was great.

A couple of years after meeting her I collected enough on her to write an ED article. It got a little bit of traction on the site but soon after I felt really bad (I loved her again) and decided to delete the article. Somehow a friend of hers stumbled across it and passed it onto her. She posted it in a journal and basically admitted that everything I wrote was completely right, laughing about it in an 'oh boy I used to be such a mess' kind of way. For a while, I was a little spooked that she might've known I wrote it, but her demeanor never changed towards me and she always seemed to be really excited to chat. I tried to mirror the typical ED retard speak, and she knew she was more than popular enough to have haters so I suppose she didn't even think I wrote it.

At the time we were also talking regularly on Yahoo messenger. I gleaned that she had some sort of underlying depression. She ended up doing art based on ideas she'd get from our convos. It filled me with this weird sort of glee. I never had any remote interest in any fandom she was in, but seeing her make things both delighted and infuriated me. I loved her shitty melodramatic writing and unique art style but I also wanted to be close friends with her so I could find flaws and humanize what I saw as too ideal for comfort. I was so angry that I couldn't be more like her, but I also wanted her to be her.

Years later, I don't have any contact with her anymore. She's moved on to another obsession, but now that she's a bit older she tends to wear her heart on her sleeve more. Her personality is still melodramatic and tryhard but she drops hints here and there that she's very depressed. I don't know why. She's still got looks and opportunities and people think she's talented. I hate to say that she has little to worry about, but she honestly does. She's since quit a majority of social media and apparently, isolates herself. For some reason or another, she looks back on her old fandoms with disdain, despite being head over hills in the past. She deleted almost all of her donut steel OC art, but I archived most of it. Her old fics are gone, replaced by her newer crap. I still go back and look at my 'her' collection a few times a week. She claims to have quit art for good now, which is a shame. I'd love to see what images are going around in her mind now.

Strangely I never felt jealous of her looks. If anything, I loved her appearance. For a while, I was confused over whether I was attracted to her or not. Eventually, I came to the conclusion that it wasn't romantic or sexual attraction I felt towards her, but a very strong desire to be her friend, or maybe just be her. Since she had a habit of being intentionally vague her age (a practice that I assume is common on social media) I hadn't realized that we were only a year apart until recently. I'd always been under the assumption that she was an actual prodigy since she called herself that a lot in her teen years. Underneath it all, I think we are still incredibly similar. She draws better, her writing gets more attention, she has more money and she suffers prettier. I'm still keeping a close eye on her but I don't think I'll be talking to her anytime soon. She probably doesn't remember me well, and I don't want the person she is now to overwrite the pretnetious and vain version of her I have in my head. That would be significantly less satisfying to love and hate.

No. 206123

>>206120
this was really fun to read

No. 206126

>>206123
Thank you. I've had a few other similar objects of obsession over the years, but none of them are/were as intense as this. Once I befriend my obsession and get to know them better I usually end up bored and slowly phasing out of their life. They go from being muses of my mental illness to normal people with normal people problems.

No. 206139

I don't know if I would call it stalking or an obsession because I don't constantly check up on their activities, but I do have a thing for reading the facebooks of legitimately insane people or drug addicts.
I think it has to do with the fact that I love reading things online about true creepy shit, but the list of things I haven't heard of is running out, and these people fill that need for me.
Sometimes it is people I have never met and have learned of online and sometimes, usually with the drug addicts, it is people I used to go to school with. I don't know, it's definitely weird but it fills that creepy void I have in my life right now.

No. 206161

This homewrecker girl and ex-boyfriend, I really just need to stop and get a life.

No. 206165

>>206120
what user was it anon?

No. 206179

>>206139
>legitimately insane people

how do you find them?

No. 206186

>>206179
Sometimes it is from sites like this and other cow sites, but a lot of times I find them from comment sections of facebook posts. I see someone who comes off as batshit insane by their comments and check their profiles out to see if the insanity goes further.
Sometimes I'll read forums of whacked out shit like people who believe in reptilian shapeshifters and stuff like that, but I find the day to day posts of insane people on facebook to be much more interesting.

No. 206188

I used to fucking obsessively watch bubzbeautys vlogs. Idk I wanted to live vicariously through her, live in the city and do makeup for a living and shop, eat McDonald's and live her silly carefree life.

But she had kids and her vlogs became incredibly boring. Probably for the best.

No. 206194

>>206120
I'm with >>206165
I want the username

No. 206197

I was obsessed with this singer, spent thousands seeing him live many times. Never wanted him sexually (may be hard to believe, but dead serious on that). He doesn't really talk to the media and his lyrics are pretty intense, so I guess I just wished I could be in his inner circle. A pipe dream I suppose. I had the money, spent it on that and it got me nowhere… I don't know what I was expecting. Moral of the story? Don't meet your idols, and definitely don't spend huge sums of money doing it.

No. 206199

>>206165
>>206194

Sorry guys. She shall forever remain a mystery.

No. 206221

I've been trying my best to avoid the people I obsess with - distancing myself, moving saved images so they're less accessible (don't have the guts to delete them just yet but haven't even looked at them once so far). I think I'm doing better and am having less intrusive thoughts as time goes by but the loneliness gets to me still and the urge to relapse and creep becomes hard to avoid. Distractions are only a temporary solution. I feel like I'm just waiting for that next person to fixate on and fill whatever void it is I have. Any of you anons relate?

No. 206225

>>206199
Well thats rude

No. 206243

>>206188

Anon are you me
From sixteen until twenty I would compulsively have to watch all her videos read all her social media and wished I was her

No. 206249

>>206120
>Underneath it all, I think we are still incredibly similar. She draws better, her writing gets more attention, she has more money and she suffers prettier.
God, this is so real. I definitely can relate.
Interesting read, anon.

No. 206280

I used to stalk my ex. Only because he is a narcissistic predator who has a taste for teenage girls (we started dating when I was 15 and he was in his twenties, didn't see anything wrong with this until I was an adult). I know all of his tricks to lure in girls. Soon after we broke up he started dropping the same tricks he did on me to a mutual friend of ours who was only 16 at the time. I told him off for it, and he immediately got defensive and blamed it on being a 'lonely old man'…even though he was at the youngest 25.

I don't stalk him as intensely nowadays since I'm done giving him the time out of my life, but I still desperately want to warn any girls he might be creeping on of his proclivities. He's the literal definition of 'I want to be the little girl' and I knew he was trouble when I found out he regularly fapped to loli and shota. He's the type to invite himself into female-dominated spaces, pretending to be a girl to attract other girls and groom them. He has a definite type and quite a few mannerisms that give him away so he's not hard to spot. I hate having to expose myself to his bullshit since we've been broken up for almost 7 years now, but I can't rest easy knowing he's still around as a 30-something trying to get kids to 'be his friend'.

I really, really want to tell these middle schoolers he's preying on that that adorable girl from "France" that's using Google translate to talk in broken English to you is really an almost 400 lb gimp narcissist from the South.

No. 206318

>>206280
I mean… why can't you?
If you know for certain that he's interacting with minors in a sexual way you can report that. Or reach out to the families of the kids. Some kids are savvy enough to figure out how to deal with creeps like that - but a lot of them aren't.

What are the chances of him having CP? If he's jerking it to loli and he's unapologetically talking to middle schoolers….

No. 206344

I don't know if he ever had

My first attempt to warn a girl (a 14 years old) ended with her not believing me. She thought I was being a bitter ex trying to sabotage their friendship. I'm really worried because he's seemed to develop an interest in DDLG and she acted a lot like your typical tumblr little. I don't live in the same state as he does anymore and I don't know if he has the same address so I don't know how to contact the authorities.


CP… I don't know. I wouldn't put it past him, since I once caught hardcore toddlercon on his computer.

No. 206345

>>206344
Meant to reply to >>206318
For some reason my post screwed up.

No. 206346

I stalk people who pissed me off or did some form of wrong, because I want to see if they're miserable.
It brings me a comfort to see something shitty happen in their life while I'm just living mine.

No. 206387

I stalk people who showed interest in me at some point. I'm really good at looking interesting online so sometimes I attract people who genuinely want to get to know me. We talk for a while and they get more and more into me and then I ghost them. That's when I start to low-key stalk them for years. I guess they all think I just found someone irl or something. What they don't know is that I have no life and I'm just sitting here checking up on their online activity.

No. 206395

>>206280
My boyfriend is the same. Admitted to me drunk one night he likes 14 year old girls and finds them attractive. I think most men are like this.

No. 206411

when i find someone interesting online i will to find as many of their social media accounts as i can and check them daily until i get bored of them

on a scale of 1-10 how bad is that

No. 206412

>>206411

to clarify i don't do this to anyone popular like on this website,
totally average people

sage for dp

No. 206466

>>206411
it sounds bad and might be a little more intense than average but i think this is just a new common habit the internet has caused. i think it's the same with "facebook stalking". If you don't have some neurotic motive for following them I don't think it's that big a deal. Someone posts some interesting things often enough that you find yourself checking daily and don't notice that you're doing it until it's a full blown habit.

No. 206468

>>206395
that's fucking revolting

No. 206473

>>206395
I can't see any justification for this beyond most men just being sick opportunist. I hear all the time that adult men are attracted to teen girls because they're physically adult women with easily manipulated minds, but I'm in my early twenties and teen girls just look like teen girls to me. They're so distinct from adult women, even young ones. So I'm not buying the 'It's normal to be attracted to them because they're identical to adults' bullshit. Those older looking girls who happen to be underaged are outliers and they fucking know it.

No. 206474

>>206411
i do the same thing. there's a few guys i rotate creeping on, though i did talk to one a few months back and nearly dated him. i think it becomes a routine and that's why it's hard to stop.

No. 206475

>>206473
they like them because they look young and cute.

No. 206493

>>206475

can you not read

No. 206494

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>>205189
That was… interesting?
We share a lot of similarities, but next to her I am a beaming ray of sunshine and hope for the future.
I am also amazed how surprisingly lucid she seems considering the nature of her novel-length post history.

No. 206531

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>>206494
ot but… since when Andrzej Sapkowski is a reaction meme, what did I miss

No. 206538

>>206531
Since i downloaded that image to my hard drive tbh.

No. 206584

>>204455
You sound eerily similar to a bloke I used to know.
I miss him

No. 206626

>>204455
Why do you think you end up strongly disliking the people that you stalk?

I have a few girls, including the current gf of a really abusive ex, and some older men who are stalking and subtweeting me now. I legit just want to understand, please.

No. 206637

>>204612
Oh my fucking god I feel like people like her would be so much fucking better off if they just quit the internet and social media for a while. No one should be this self conscious, literally ever, and now her bullshit is manifesting as chronic pain. She needs a blood test, a doctor, and to fucking get over herself.

Thanks for posting this. I have episodes of major depression and sometimes I get a little spun out, can't find reasons to care, then I read how ridiculous those thoughts are coming from someone else and it forces me to at least fake it until it's real. Oh my god.

No. 206673

I have borderline personality disorder and I tend to become obsessed with one person (romantically) and suddenly nothing else matters to me. It's to the point where the smallest thing they do can affect my mood, even them getting a new haircut can make me feel insecure because I feel like it means they'll try to impress someone else and leave me for them. It really sucks because my last boyfriend was the only person I had left and he cheated on me and left me. My friends felt bad for me and came back to me after that but I could barely make myself care about them for the longest time. I was still obsessed with that ex for about a year and a half after our break up. I am becoming infatuated with someone else now and I can feel the cycle repeating itself already.

No. 206717

>>206637
Anon, you responded to. I totally agree.

Also, I just happened to be in NYC for a while. I was in a pretty nice area (Morningside Heights in Manhattan) but even walking around casually for a few days as a tourist it's pretty easy to tell that there are a HUGE amount of diversity in NYC. Lots of the most successful people in the world live in the city, yes, but a ton of very unsuccessful people live there to. Living in NYC should give you an example that not everyone has a polished lifestyle.

No. 206745

>>206673
That just sounds like insecurity. I'm like that too. I think women are overdiagnosed with borderline.

No. 206746

>>206745
I think it's normal when it's a brand new relationship and you don't trust your partner that much yet, or an LDR… But in those cases it lasts for a few weeks, maybe a month and anon has been obsessed with him for what sounds like years. Plus I'm fairly certain what she's describing feels a lot stronger than anything we might experience.

No. 206754

>>204455
I used to be obsessed with Dakota back in 2011,would try to see where she lived/her whole bedroom (i made a plan of it based on her pics)/her whole wardrobe/get rare pics of her/… and try to be like her without making it obvious so i wouldnt look like a creep.
I would never hurt anyone or follow them in real life because i'm just a shy loser and keep to myself,but I get autistically obsessed with people sometimes.
There was also two lolitas I got obsessed with, including one who deleted everything so i spent hours on her friend's tumblrs searching for her pics,looking at the blogs who reblogged them,search her name on several platforms,…

No. 206755

>>206344
>>206318
>>206280
>>206473
I'm gonna sound like a sjw tumblrtard but shit like this is why i'm convinced most men are absolute trash.
When you get old,they just don't care about you anymore, all they want is some young,cute,fresh meat to stick their dick into

No. 206810

>>206754
Considering all the Kota clones that used to exist and copied her to a T on social media, your obsession doesn't even sound that creepy. I still remember that Russian (?) girl who shooped herself to look like Kota and copied all her poses.

No. 206977

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>>206717
This girl is really at it again

No. 206978

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No. 207123

>>206977
Ugh. That's really depressing. There's no entitlement to rage about here, it's pure self deprecation and sadness all around.

No. 207129

>>207123
Yeah, there kind of is? Like >>206637 she needs to get over herself.

She makes these posts on reddit several times weekly over the last two or so years, and not one thing has improved in that situation at the time. She is so whiny that not even /r/rasiedbynaricsissists, which loves to take the side of the posts almost 100% of the time, would side with her. They suggested to her that she move out and she refused.

There was just another post by her, which is in a private community, implying that everyone else has it in life like Don Draper. She acts like other people don't have to work hard and struggle to get what they want.

I think her problem is that she has spent her life sheltered in a mostly white, upper middle class community (it seems most of her friends are like that), which has caused her problems in her world view. But it also doesn't make any sense in light of her being from NYC, which is one of the most diverse places in the world.

I think it's ok to vent some, but when your posts literally consist of you venting all the time and doing nothing to accomplish your situation to an audience of people that will give you asspats and confirm whatever unhealthy worldview you have, it's time to stop.

She needs to get herself on disability or get institutionalized or SOMETHING. Hell, she has a college degree, not sure why she didn't bother to teach English in Asia in the decade since she graduated.

I've gone on long enough, I'm just not sure why people are so sympathetic to her. I feel like if this was a guy posting the exact same words, people would here would be ripping into him. lmao

No. 207209

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>>206165
>>206194
>>206225

OP of that post here. Here's an example of one of her fanfics, something slightly more recent (2009). Just an example of how pretentious and blowhard she is about her own writing. Just thought through this was enough to make me almost fall in love again. PS, this is nowhere near the longest tag list she's put on a fanfic.

No. 207224

>>207209
>shadow the hedgehog
>violence, rape and abuse
lord deliver me I'm in stitches

No. 207282

>>207209
>Non-Consensual Kissing
>I Can't Believe I Wrote This
>This Is Why We Can't Have Nice Things

No. 207506

My boyfriend had a crush on a youtube personality. I wasn't necessarily jealous but did feel a little hatred towards her, Idk it was a weird mix of admiration and hatred. I stalked the shit out of her and even went so far as to get like her entire wardrobe. She never said where she bought anything but I'd spend hours scouring through her videos to try to see tags or where she bought them. So i ended up buying 20 dresses that were exactly like hers and even paying huge shipping costs because she's Australian so it was all Australian brands. And I'd just wear the clothes all the time and stalk her insta and snapchat. I did that religiously for like 3 years. I finally stopped because she dropped off the face of youtube for a while, she came back and was fat and homley, I felt kinda bad for her. So now all those clothes are in a box in my closet.Besides that I've never really cyberstalked anyone else and I look back thinking wtf

No. 207530

>>207506
Are you still with him tho?

No. 207546

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No. 207605

>>206243

Yeah but ngl when I'm particularly lonely or life really sucks I still go rewatch her old vlogs and vids. I think I just miss the 2010-2014 era because my life has gotten significantly shittier in the last few years.

No. 207607

I obsess over cute girls (usually around my age)
Not only because i'm probably gay or bi at the very least, but mostly because i wanna be them.
There was this one girl before who was really pretty,really rich,huge burando wardrobe,loved by her parents who were rich and totally supported lolita,lots of friends,…
I have assburger fixations on things,including people. So I stalked all of her social media,tried to find pics of them on google,wayback machine for her old blogs,through her friends accounts,tumblrs (she was quite popular back then so there are quite a few pics of her laying around)…

It's so satisfying in a way yet i feel so depressed and creepy after a while.

No. 207639

>>207607
I kinda obsess over cute girls too but mainly celebrity ones because I wonder what makes them so liked

No. 207690

>>207530
Yeah, we are married now actually! It turned out he really didn't like her all that much, couldn't even spell her name. lol. I overacted just a little

No. 207710

>>207690
Great to hear that it worked out for you in the end!

No. 207738

>>207690

>Single white female'd am Australian YouTuber because your boyfriend thought she was cute


>overreacted just a little


I love you crazy Farmers

No. 207749

Is it really that weird to check up on people you don't know online? There's a few people I check in with every few months (used to be more often when I didn't have a life lol). One particular girl I knew from a blogging site. I commented on her stuff like 5 years ago and thought she was cool but was too shy to actually talk to her. I check her social media every now and then to make sure she's doing ok.

I also check up on my best friends ex friend. She's really pretty and has a chill life so I like to check where she's been traveling and what she's been doing.

I probably sound really autistic, idk maybe I am, I'm pretty nosey to be honest. The only people I hate watch (apart from lolcows) are people who were shitty to me. I like to remind myself how fucking ugly and boring they are

No. 207776

>>207749
Dw i do the same.
I hatewatch two of my ex-friends that were shitty to me. and as petty as it may sound, knowing that i do better than them,look prettier (one of them started smoking and is obsessed with looking young with a nymphet aesthetic so she looks godawful and cringy, the other became a fakeboi and is obese lol) and have good friends (one of the has no friends and is begging on ig for them)

No. 207777

>>207776
/I love knowing that

No. 207782

Theres a photographe/rinstagrammer I really love the artwork of. She does a lot of crafty stuff and drawings too. like she's all around a great artist even though she's just an instagrammer. like, she could really make a living on art. I went through her flickr/old blogs/ old deviantarts and I have most of her photography saved. I even dug up some old fanfics she wrote on LJ and saved them to my computer. She has a lot of photos of herself selfinjuring and I pretty much contantly refresh her feed to save them. She usually doesn't post personal stuff, just artwork. But sometimes she posts really disturbing accounts of suicide attempts/ mental health that seems genuine. I try to copy her photoediting style and aesthetic. If she tries a new craft, I immediately go out and try it myself even though I lack her skill. Sometimes when she sells crafts, I buy them if I can afford it. It feels nice knowing that I won things made by someone with so much raw talent.

I occasionally leave nice comments on her IG on how skilled she is as an artist but other than that I don't really have any personal contact with her outside of just being a fan. I even found out where she works so I went on a day trip to the town where she lives in hopes of running into her at work and gushing to her about how much she's helped and inspired me. I even made a little photo collage w/ my own photos that I wanted to give her as a thank you present.

I caught myself being creepy and decided to just not even go there. I'm kind of ashamed I drove an hour and a half through nowhere boringass farmland just to go to a mediocre small town in hopes of running into someone who is probably severely mentally ill and would likely have a break if she knew some stranger from the internet tried to stalk her/copy her entire life. I guess I do it because I'm just a lunatic who found a fellow minded person. Honestly reading this thread made me more selfaware and now I feel bad.

No. 207787

>>207749
lol i do that too. made a fake FB eons ago, and shared it with an online friend. i added a bunch of randoms from all over the world, and check up on them now and then. i think of it as reality television in real life. some of them are really fucking whack!

No. 207823

I stalk quite a few people but I've also had my fair share of stalkers.

It's weird to think my friends and family know I've had a couple of crazy guys stalk me online then find me IRL (outside school, following me to my house and vice versa, but they don't know I've stalked some people online for years.

My current guilty pleasure is my boyfriend's ex. I had no idea who she was before I got with him, but apparently he completely got over her once he met me. She's
Honestly gorgeous and disgustingly wealthy so I was surprised. I started checking her accounts out of curiosity but later found out she really doesn't like me and keeps coming back to contact my boyfriend, and that's when the real stalking began. There's something fun about watching a girl who thinks she's better than you sadpost on multiple platforms because of how empty her glamorous life is. I manage to get my hands on some of her private conversations out of sheer obsession. I still get giddy whenever I look at her insanely beautiful vain selfies with pathetic, subtweety captions like "Is her grass that much greener?"
It's kind of funny to me how it's been over a year and she's still publicly obsessed with my boyfriend while I'm secretly obessed with her.

No. 207839

>>207823
You should have hot lesbian sex together

No. 207852

>>207839
Unfortunately she's straight and thinks I'm "just average". I'd love to hatefuck her (or better yet, fuck my boyfriend in front of her.)

No. 208411

My boyfriend is friends with this fat chick and they used to flirt a lot over social media before i actually started dating him. I don't care about him having friends who are girls, I'm not the jealous type and i trust him. But im rail thin and always have been. So i dont know why but it irks me that hes attracted to this particular fat girl.

I check her ig everyday to see if he liked her pictures and not mine. I make up these scenarios in my head about meeting her and how i want to beat the shit out of her and make her feel like shit about her body. I cant even watch porn with chubby girls in it anymore, because i think of this girl who's never said a word to me. I have to force myself to stop checking all her of profiles to see if her and my bf had any interaction that day. I become so deluded that i want to start asking him if hed cheat on me with her.The worst part is i think i wouldn't care if she was skinny.

I hate that i think I'm better than fat people. Especially her. For her to be friends with my bf she has to be a nice person. I like all of his other friends. I don't know what is wrong with me.

No. 208969

>>208411
But anon, you ARE better than a landwhale.

No. 208974

>>208411
Uhhh, why are you completely blaming and shitting on her? As if your bf has no free will of his own? It takes 2

No. 208975

>>208974
did you read her post anon? they're not cheating…

No. 208979

>>208411
You are better than that land whale and he knows it!

No. 208980

I talked to this guy for nearly half a year. Recently he got an overweight koreaboo girlfriend without me knowing. I found her facebook and she took photos of herself in a crop top with her gut hanging out. Another was of her in one of those Chinese American Apparel knockoff tennis skirts and a bra. He's Korean, so I guess she was easy pussy.

No. 208981

>>208980
thats sad

No. 208982

>>208981
I forgot to mention that she's the type of weeb you find on language apps. She's trying to get an AA in East Asian history, lmfao.

I know I shouldn't let it bug me, but it hurts that he's cuffing some whale from the local anime club. I keep telling myself that if he's willing to fuck her he isn't worth my time.

No. 208990

>>208982
Why do you have such terrible taste in men?

No. 208993

I get super obsessed with certain people from time to time, and it's like i'm a fucking info hoarder. One of them, the first one, was one of my teachers and it went so far as recording our classes so I could go home and listen to them. I have like….30? Of those, maybe even more. I also convinced my parents to buy her expensive academic book I would have absolutely no hope of being able to understand at the time. I was such a kissass in class too: I basically worshipped her.

The other is a friend that I'm crushing on, and it's much like above except it's hoarding pictures of her, even from years ago and periodically looking at them. I also do a daily stalk of both of her tumblrs and her tumblr likes because I like getting "Secret info" from there. I talk to her all the time and I legit enjoy being her friend but I also love getting to hear things I know nobody else knows. I also visit her at her work all the time and go to non-compulsory classes just so i could see her on campus.

It just gives me a huge rush but at the same times calms me down. It's fucking weird thanks for making me drag all that up on a public forum OP

No. 209023

i'm starting to develop a new obsession on a complete stranger. looking up court cases from nearly 2 decades ago and getting excited just reading about some random misdemeanors. shit's so weird now that i think about it, but it feels like a drug

>>208993
>It just gives me a huge rush but at the same times calms me down.

same here! you wouldn't expect this kinda thing to be so emotionally fulfilling but somehow it is

No. 209025

>>207782
whats the user?

No. 209027

>>209025
it's a private IG but her public flickr is tinydoll

No. 209034


No. 209036

My ex who popped my cherry. I legit called him and texted him every week then every month until he called the cops on me for stalking him (I never physically went to his place because he said he would beat my ass if I go there looking for him. Men) Well one day I look at my phone and he sent me a text like 5 days ago. He wanted to reconnect aka he was desperate and want to fuck me again. I didn't text him back which was soo weird cuz I used to have dreams of waking up and reading a text from him. Literally planned outfits for that day.

But yeah I'm just too busy being fixated on my most recent ex who gave me my 1st O. And I mean, these obsessions fall behind my own obsession with myself. So I don't have time to keep more than 1 going lol

No. 209041

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Yeah, I online stalk a girl who I have mutual friends with, but have never met myself. Looking at her facebook profile, she seems very well-put together: good-looking, intelligent and high ambitions. But then I found her reddit account and some of her old blogs and now I realize her life is a fuckin' mess. I also suspect she may have some personality disorder like BPD or similar(?)

>She was aiming for medical school and made posts on reddit and facebook as if she already KNOWS she'll be accepted. Like "before I go to med school in the fall, I'm going to…" and took multiple selfies with a white lab coat and a stethoscope and posted them to facebook. Some people on reddit were even congratulating her on being accepted.


>Found out later she had a GPA under 3.5 with almost no volunteer experience…


>She must have gotten rejected pre-interview (no surprise) because she later deleted all her reddit posts and facebook selfies about it


>Around the same time, she cheated on and dumped her fiance on Valentine's Day, despite proposing to HIM only a few months prior. I found out she's dumped previous bfs on holidays, which makes me think it's purposefully done to gain maximum attention/drama.


>Has a history with "monkey branching" her boyfriends and dumping them out of the blue, only to be dating someone else not long after


>Asks for advice on reddit about how to live frugally because she's living entirely off government loans and child benefits (got pregnant with her ex after 3 months of dating), and how she can just "barely make it work"


>On facebook, she describes herself as a "fiscal conservative" and goes to expensive salons to change up her hair color every month, buys designer clothes, pays for photographers to do a glamorous photoshoot


>Wrote on her blog about how much she hates her hometown because it's full of "hicks" and because she's desperate for money but no one is hiring, but she refused to apply to a certain coffee shop chain to "keep her sanity". (I've worked at the same place, it's really not bad at all).


>Had a four paragraph long, flowery biography about herself on said blog


>Will sometimes selfpost to reddit and get 1000+ upvotes, but I've noticed she will change something about her appearance a few days after one of her selfies don't get as many upvotes as usual


Anyways, I guess the moral of the story is even if someone seems really put-together on social media, it may just be a facade to their real life: which is a chaotic mess of stupidity and impulsive decisions.

No. 209049

>>209041
Wow this bitch sounds like a piece of work. You have any pics or anything? I'd love a link to her blog.

No. 209050

>>209041
Fiscal conservative is just a Republican who is too ashamed to stand by their parties wacko social ideals. Essentially they are all about laissez faire and all that shit

I hate them cuz they're always misinformed

No. 209070

This isn't much of an obsession but just casual stalking out of interest, but I follow this one girl that just piques my interest being the brat she is. Trying to keep it somewhat vague to hide my stalker ass.
>Web artist (duh)
>In her mid-20s, unemployed, has no degree, no work experience at all
>Claims to have a severe case of PTSD and depression
>Can't keep her stories straight about her childhood and adolescence, always makes herself out to be the extreme victim of traumatizing experiences. I believe some of them to be true, but when her posts in the past contradict some of the stuff she's opened up about it feels fishy. And of course, she leaves out all the shitty things she's done to other people.
>She's also overweight and has a massive complex about it. OBSESSES over her weight and occasionally works out, but can't cut out the excessive binging on junk food. On the other hand she keeps going on about how chubby girls are so sexy and cute, possibly as a coping mechanism.
>Self harms and makes a huge, public deal about it
>Has a boyfriend who started out normal, but she has dragged him down with her, making him a husk of a man who's too much of a pussy to leave the toxic relationship
>She has no impulse control, buys shit she doesn't really need with the money she doesn't have and then cries about being poor

Despite all of this she manages to be one of the most entitled people I've ever seen. She's rude, very self-centered, skips out on her responsibilities while blaming everything on ~m-muh depression~. Despite her continuous hate for her "ugly" looks she posts selfies all the time. She deliberately eggs trolls on with her pompous "bad bitch" attitude and cries for help and reassurance when they attack her back. I have to say that I mostly follow her to remind myself of never sinking to that level of attention whoring and life habits in general. I do take pity on her boyfriend though, he seems like a wimpy guy who just got caught in the middle. Then again he also enables her terrible behavior, making her sink even lower.

No. 209108

>>209070
she sounds amazing, love following people like this

No. 209109

>>209041
>>209070

I engage in the same type of stalking! My personal cow is a "beauty queen" who is a compulsive liar and just intrigues me in every way.

>Mid 20's, did some modeling when younger

>claimed to go abroad with a modelling contract, in reality she won a competition to manage an old single women's magazine in the country and got paid peanuts for it
>Then chose "to become an au-pair", in reality used her looks to find single men looking for "au-pairs". Hooks around the country after getting bored of having to do actual work for the magazine.
>She goes quiet for a bit, in retrospect she got lip fillers and implants during this time
>re-surfaces in Dubai as a "hostess" at a VIP club
>google around and find out the club is a front for escorting, find her ig besties escorting advert


>she starts travelling with her ig bestie and shows up in all fancy events across the world, coincidentally events that are known for having escorts shipped in

>re-surfaces back in her home country and blogposts about being such an adventurer and how she was "backpacking" her way and hustling
>starts dating an edgy alt-right trustfund guy, who she convinces she's the perfect aryan virgin waifu
>starts ranting about being a traditional waifu and moderate about sex etc…
>starts posting how she's in medschool at this certain university, google around and find out that they rejected her in reality
>posts hashtags that she thinks make her look liked she's in medschool, but in reality they're words she has made up
>starts pretending she's also a professional pilot and is enrolled fulltime to become a COMMERCIAL PILOT
>while she's still claiming to be fulltime medschool student

I'm always waiting for her new lies, since they just get worse and worse everytime

No. 209133

>>209109
This also sounds amazing

How the fuck does the guy not know about her past? Seems dumb as fuck to not know.

No. 209239

>>209109
>>209041
What is with these chicks and medical school? Yeah I get it's a "status" thing, but do they not realize how embarrassing it will be for them once it becomes glaringly obvious to everyone else that they'll never be accepted?

No. 209305

i have this stupid obsession with a girl that i met through rping. she was sweet at first but i quickly noticed that she tends to copy/blatantly steal other people's ideas and claims them as their own.

some of her bullshit:

>claimed that she was totes a transdude and getting surgery to have a dick very very VERY soon!

>turns out that she's the cissest cis girl to ever cis
>claimed to be self-employed, earning 600 bucks an hour by traveling to remote places around russia for a health insurance company?
>turns out she's actually in job training at a tiny insurance company and has to work 2 more jobs on the weekends to make ends meet
>claims to be russian and to be fluent in tons of languages (like hebrew, arabic, russian, english, german.. her english is subpar at best)
>turns out only her lame boyfriend is half-russian and has no connection to his russian roots either lmao
>currently claims to be a guy and a drag queen and her bf is a rich boy (he's not, he's a fucking plumber)

she also likes to get close to her rp partners and parades them around as "love of my life" without her boyfriend knowing anything about it. for the longest time i thought one of her "friends" was her bf but he's not even into rping.

i keep checking up on her even though it makes me seem like i have the dumbest grudge against her for all the bullshit she pulled, but she's just so funny and embarrassing to watch? literally like a car accident. i shouldn't stare but i can't look away either.

No. 209323

>>205009
I know this post is almost a month old, but I really want friends like yours, kek

No. 209349

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I want to be this guy's little sister even though he already has one. At first I thought it was just a lie since he runs this youtube series and I never saw his sister until I found his old tumblr where he has a picture of him and her together.
I still want to have him "adopt" me as his little sister anyways. I want him to pat me on the head and say "lil' sis" to me since I find that to be so much pure and special than being just a friend or girlfriend to him. I've seen how he treats his gfs and it's off-putting to me since he'll slap their ass and call them babe.
Maybe it's because my real big brother died and now I'm lonely without him so I want to have a substitute.
Maybe it's because I'm aromantic and asexual that I fear any other kind of relationship with a man so being a "little sister" is the best platonic relationship I can hope for.
Either way, I've been following this guy's instagram and twitter especially to see if he'll attend any con so I can go there too to hopefully see/meet him.
We can certainly pass for siblings, it's one of the reasons why I want to be his sister because we look quite alike and have similar tastes.
But I know this is fucked up and I'm still super shy so I don't think it'll ever happen.

No. 209671


No. 210153

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I've been in love with a musician who lives across the world from me for a really long time now, to the point it's turned into a horrible obsession.
The first time I heard his music and saw his face, I fell in love. Ever since then, I've been deluding myself into having a chance with him.
My current photo album of him has over 2,000 photos– no duplicates and some hard to find. I've spent 500+ dollars on merchandise of his band and him. I have also taken several trips to see him just to be able to say a few words to him.
I message him every day words of encouragement, even though I don't think he reads them… (He's pretty popular, I guess) mostly because he's getting old, and I worry he'll retire from music.
When I see pictures of him (even accidentally), I start crying because he's so handsome (And his personality is A++ too, even if it's fabricated.)
Actually the first time I saw him, I cried a little bit and apologized, and he told me it was okay. I still get a little emotional over him telling me that and his voice echoes in my head.
I have post notifications on for all his social media, so even if he posts at 5 am and I'm asleep, my phone wakes me up so I can see what he posted.
It's even gotten to the point where I get jealous if other girls like him, like a "I like him more than you do" kind of thing
I know I have no future with him, especially since he's a somewhat well-known musician who gets mad pussy, but I love him so much and I can't really stop myself.
..The worst part is I have a boyfriend and he knows how obsessed I am with this guy and hates it but I can't stop even for him.

No. 210164

>>210153
You should talk to a professional. This level of obsession is not healthy and could really affect your life. It already sounds like you prioritize this musician over other things. It's like an addiction, you can get away from it. There's no happy ending here otherwise.

No. 210168

>>210153
It'd be one thing if you were single but seeing as you're in a relationship this is very odd. Is your bf not enough? I have obsessive tendencies too but it stems from loneliness and not having anything worthwhile to engage in and I would think if you were similar than having a fulfilling relationship should be enough to kick that.

No. 210170

>>210153
I knew about 2/3 of the way through this that you were going to say at the end that you had a boyfriend. lol it's always like this. It makes me wonder why - I guess if you didn't have a boyfriend you would probably end your post with something like, god this is fucking up my chances of a real relationship. But because you have a real relationship… there's no crisis-level reason for you stop. Your boyfriend putting up with this is enabling you.

No. 210173

>>210153
Are you happy, anon? Does your relationship make you happy? Are you satisfied with your life? Don't answer with "yeah my boyfriend is so caring" or "well I have a good job and make decent money" - like regardless of if those things are true, are they making you happy?

I'm in a somewhat similar situation and I know how dumb it sounds but it took a therapist to make me understand how unhappy I am and that's the reason why I have obsessions. Of course if you're unfulfilled in your life, you're going to seek out something so perfect and easy to understand, even though you KNOW it's a false image.

You could continue with this obsession, or you could make an effort to make your real life satisfying enough. I wouldn't blame you for sticking with the former because I'm struggling too

Good luck anon

No. 210175

I’m unhealthy obsessed looking at my ex’s twitter everyday to see if he dates a new girl.

I want to see what kind of girls he likes because he dumped me back then.
They are overall shooped girls / chubby camgirls and it makes me feel bad because I’m skinny/white and I even suspected he has some kind of specific fetish for normal ugly girls that don’t stand out

These girls are also depressed from time to time and just pretend to be happy so I don’t see the point in why he left me.

I kinda want to have full control over him that he feels bad that he dumped me.

It works but it also makes me not feeling any better.
I feel like a horrible human being from time to time to be honest and I feel like my depression is a thing that no boy can handle or wants to fed up with.

No. 210177

>>210175
Lol you sound like a piece of shit. Maybe you're alone because you re a superficial racist

No. 210181

I have a bad habit of “social sphere stalking” - I’ll become mildly obsessed with a certain person and by proxy start checking up on their closest links, then their closest links, etc. (For example obsessed with a guy, so start checking up on guy’s ex and his baby mama, then ex’s/baby mama’s friend circle…)

I’ve been doing this for years because it just seemed that cool people attracted other cool people, and I probably (definitely) just wished that one day I would be cool enough to be part of those spheres.

It started off with MySpace though. That shit was lethal because it was so static; easy to create a facade of perfection when all you needed was the “right” profile and a few flawless photos. Much harder to do on IG/FB, which is constantly updated and much more interactive (captions/statuses). Used to stalk weird arty types like Allison Harvard obsessively back then, as well as plastic scene kids like Izzy Hilton and Victoria Murder (embarrassing but I was like 12 so). Used to save their photos and copy their profile styles, and imagine what their lives were like in my head then try really hard to be exactly like that. Have been diagnosed with BPD as an adult though, so maybe that’s why stepping into someone else’s personality/life appealed to me so much.

Also do the usual checking up on significant exes/friends I’m no longer friends with/girls who bullied me at school/partner’s exes. Always interesting to see where people end up, but I wouldn’t call it obsessive…

No. 210182

>>210177

Where are you getting racist from?

No. 210183

>>210182
different anon but maybe the fact that she clarified she's white. Not even that she's pretty or anything just "I'm white". Although it didn't strike me personally as racist it is weird to specify lol.

No. 210191

>>210183 >>210177

I just stated I’m white and honestly it’s rather the guy then that is racist and I know some that specify white girls over black girls or black girls over white girls.

It’s the same with all these weebs nowadays that want a asian gf or a “nazi” waifu to kick them (german girls) and don’t want any other race. I’ve seen that shit enough. I talked with stupid guys like that

- THAT - is racist my dude and it’s disgusting and stupid honestly

No. 210203

>>210164
I've tried but none of them ever take me seriously. "it's just a celebrity crush, most girls have one" is the response I usually get from any counselor I've tried. currently trying to find a decent one that's not just "and how does that make you feel?" over and over
>>210168
I love my boyfriend to death but there's a lot of things he does that could be considered abusive, and that might be why I have this obsession because I fantasize this person as being sweet and loving and stuff like that, instead I've got someone who hurts me
>>210170
He definitely is enabling it.. he enables a lot of my bad behaviors. but I do the same to him, always tell him it's okay that he did something wrong. He certainly is uncomfortable with it and actually got super jealous when he saw my shrine… but he doesn't tell me to stop being obsessed or get my shit together, he just lets me. Maybe because he knows theres no way and with how protective he is over me, I could never do anything with this person, so he thinks its at least.. not something I have to stop for him
>>210173
I'm definitely not happy, my life has totally gone to shit. I'm a neet with no job, no family, and no education due to years of drug and alcohol abuse, also a lot of trauma stuff as a child basically made me terrified of the world (scared to go outside for too long, scared of driving. I'm okay going on planes or other countries because nothing happened with those.) so I can't do much. It's miserable and I'm just hanging on by staying with my boyfriend because he takes care of my pathetic ass as much as he treats me like shit.
Probably part of the obsession for me is this fantasy I've made in my head that this person will start dating me and take me in and be ~amazinggg~ and marry me and we'll be happy forever and ever and I'll be happy with him and get better physically. It's unrealistic and probably impossible but I have that stupid thought in my head that maybe that'll happen.
I need a decent therapist for sure… but I don't even know if that can totally pull me away from it honestly

No. 210275

There's a guy from uni that I kind of talked to from time to time because of mutual "friends" (more like he was hanging out with my close friends at first and started making fun of them all of a sudden, but never bothered me for some reason) and who dropped out of college because we're not learning anything useful. I found his twitter, tumblr and instagram accounts through one of his friend's professional twitter so I check them from time to time out of sheer morbid curiosity. He tends to post TMI about himself and his "private" life while acting/typing like a catty bitch on his accounts that are tied to his real identity (his real first name, where he lives, his job, and his face). Although he posts a lot about going out with friends and traveling abroad so it also makes me a bit jealous because I can't afford doing pretty much anything because of the lack of free time, money and support from my family. But it's mostly out of morbid curiosity, I'm not obsessed but there are many times when I have nothing better to do than browsing websites so I end up checking his accounts.

There's someone else I don't know irl but I used to talk to a lot on tumblr. We were mutuals and she saw me as a friend because we were both a into the same video games and anime and all that. She became a SJW over time and started vaguing about me more and more often and imply insulting things about me so I decided to ignore her and unfollow her but she didn't notice. I deleted my tumblr, made a twitter account and she decided to follow me there so I did the same again, out of curiosity more than to make up with her. I don't think she really realised that I muted her account. At some point I was complaining about dumb fandom shit (I think it was mlm fakebois) and she unfollowed right after and vagued about me again. I still check her twitter sometimes and she spends her time posting her terrible art even though she graduated from an art school, how anime is problematic despite her watching them all the time and gay pairings in overwatch and just being passive-aggressive in general. So basically she became more and more boring. Turns out, months after she unfollowed me and insulted me behind my back, she liked one of my tweets, so she might be doing the same thing. I should block her and move on I guess.

No. 210305

>>210203
>there's a lot of things he does that could be considered abusive, and that might be why I have this obsession because I fantasize this person as being sweet and loving and stuff like that, instead I've got someone who hurts me

Drop his ass. I've been in a pretty similar place and I know how scary it is to cut off the one person who is your companion and jump straight into the void of being single… but taking the trash out from your life allows someone who will treat you right to show up
(I assume your bf is uninterested in going to therapy/couple counselling and changing his behavior).
Sure you have to put in an effort to find someone, but it's better than wasting your life on someone who is making you unhappy.
Regarding your obsession - maybe a therapist that is specialized in helping addicts would be more helpful to you? Especially if they had contact with people addicted to porn or internet etc.

No. 210484

I used to be friends with this girl briefly on fb, turned out to be a total sjw cow, claims she's a vampire, and a witch, into ddlg kink, and a performer, a poet, a model, etc etc, as well as a transboi. In essence a total identifarian cow. Like she literally claims to have light sensitivity headaches due to being a vampire, claims to be a poet for her useless virtue signaling diatribes, refers to herself as a "goddess" when she's utterly hideous and repulsive. Totally ugly and annoying and self important. Deleted her for being insufferable well over 2 years ago but can't stop checking her social media to laugh at her. I would have posted her in here with screenshots but I don't for fear of someone cowtipping and spoiling my fun. I know I sound horrible judging her but something about her is just so hateable. she's the kind of person to take a shit and write a novel about how inspirational it is for everyone, her, a transboi vamp witch performer sexiest model uwu

No. 210485

>>210484
Sexpert*

No. 210516

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>>210484
>identifarian
top fucking kek
didnt know such a term exists.

No. 210567

>>210203
No try a different psych that guy is wrong. You have said it yourself it is causing interference in your life, you’re devoting excessive time including purposeful sleep disturbance. It’ll only get worse.

No. 210724

>>210153
Whats his band Anon?

No. 210734

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I'm dating a stalkerish guy if that counts. It doesn't bother me because I don't care about relationships anyways while he tries everything to keep ours together so it works out, kind of.
I mean, he's a great guy, he says weird stuff occasionally and seems to get jealous pretty easily even though I act pretty harshly against everyone I know because I don't like people anyways but I'd wish he'd just accept that it's extremely hard to talk to him when he treats me like some sort of tsundere princess goddess who does no wrong and deserves the amount of praise the chinese collectively give to Mao Zedong when I just want to be left alone and play shitty PS1 games on my emulator.
I really don't understand it. He's extremely attractive, intelligent, and has a bunch of fans and friends but he still obsesses over someone who plainly hates people.

There's another guy I know who is extremely smart, attractive, and rich as well who attempted to stalk me (he later tried to dox me but he had all the information wrong since I just input random shit on About Me's or profiles) and then claimed that he loved me on multiple occasions and then he'd talk about how much he loves girls of my race and random bullshit like that. He's somewhat of a dangerous guy so I try not to talk to him often. I don't fucking understand it.

There was another guy, some European dude who attempted to stalk me but kept having issues trying to figure out how to find any profiles I had online because of my usernames on websites sounded like something that would be an English-sounding name (but wasn't) or something. I burned that bridge after he kept messaging me at random hours of the day asking for me to play games with him because he's famous on one game or something.

Then there was a French guy who obsessed with me and then asked me out and when I said no, he went on a rant (in broken English, no less) about Catholicism and how I'm a sinner and I'm going to hell for not dating him.

There were more but the rest are boring to tell.
And I really don't understand it. I'm not smart, I'm not attractive (I've been mistaken as a boy multiple times IRL), I'm not rich, I even pretend to be guys online but that attracts gay guys. There's no rhyme nor reason to it. It's why I wish I had more female friends because they're less likely to do this shit to other girls.

No. 210736

>>210734
Vicky pls

No. 210743

One time a guy I met on 4chan kind of had an unhealthy obsession with me.

He obsessively texted/called me every day for a couple months and eventually managed to get my adress (might've left on the photo location thing on my phone, I was somewhere between 13 and 15 at the time and I was dumb as shit). Then he started writing me these fucking Notebook style daily letters. I never read any of them because the entire concept made me cringe so much that I couldn't bring myself to do it. I did save a few of them though. He sent me atleast 60… Weird that he'd go through all that effort for a shitty teenage girl he met of fucking 4chan of all places.

No. 210745

>>204455
I've always had stalker-ish tendencies, I remember in middle school (and of course high school) I would stalk whatever guys I found attractive/had a crush on. I was also kind of obsessive with some celebrities, kind of a husbando collector. It would often be ruined by my finding out some aspect of their personality that ruined them for me, so while I still do this sort of thing I have to walk a careful line between finding out everything about them (which I want) and having to resist because it will ruin them and I just want a happy mental image of them beyond appearance. I get really emotional about it and I can't stop even though I'm actually married at this point. I think it's because I've always been a fucked up loner with no friends, I'm basically a shut in now (I won't say NEET because I do work sometimes, but still). I actually stalked my now husband too, that one ended up working out well and while I love him I still have the same compulsion. I have a new crush now though and I'm really trying to resist looking up more.

Of course that is outside the typical "stalking" that goes on here with cows. At one point I had a personal lolcow that I still check up on every once in a while. I never shared her here because she's the skittish type.

No. 210750

>>210745
Dude probably was a pedo neet and you being a teenage girl who browses 4chan was the appeal

No. 210753

>>210734
you sound insufferable to me, hope that helps

No. 210771

>>210736
kekkkkkk

No. 210779

>>210753
That's the point. My father's the same way too so I got it from him.
Thanks, I guess.

No. 211100

This is me right now. I’m in a super loving relationship with my current boyfriend, but I get random bouts where I obsess over my abusive ex. I really want to doxx him, hear about how horrible he’s doing and overall just shit on him for shitting on me for half a year. I don’t think it helps that current boyfriend and I have been long distance for 4 months (it’s finally over for good thank fucking Christ) so I don’t have anything super distracting. I wish I could stop searching him online and trying to track down his new place because I want to smash his teeth in…I think the worst part is I was never like this until he came into my life, the fucking bastard. It’s been 7 months since I cut him out of my life and 5 since I got him to stop talking to me…

No. 211110

Have any of you ever came clean and confessed towards the person you were obsessed over? I'm so fatigued I may very well do it.

No. 211119

>>211100
You can hire someone to do it for you if you're that obsessed

No. 211135

i have an unhealthy obsession with a girl from here but im trying to let go

>when you make new accounts and she blocks them but get that thrill knowing she at least acknowledged you and make rationalisations in your head as how she's only blocking you because she feels unworthy or something and is actually still in love with you


like i said trying to let go as i know this is bad behaviour

No. 211136

>>211110
once did it and it turned out she was boring and ugly up close

classic case of this
>>204469
>When you obsess over a person and start to idealise them then they can only let you down when you get to know them for real.

No. 211142

>>211136
>turned out she was boring and ugly up close
literally what happens every time lmao

No. 211150

>>211142
she wasn't even impressed that i knew where she went to school and lived, think she was a bit thick

No. 211181

>>211150
You can get that information from someones facebook in half an hour most of the time nowadays though. People practically beg to give their personal information away.

No. 211197

So a couple years back (I think I was around 16-17) i stalked this girl on Tumblr pretty bad. She was mutuals with someone who had a pretty popular account, so she had a decent following, too. Anyway, I started going through her selfie and personal-tag, which at first was just to make me feel better about myself, because she was kind of a mess. Then the more i read her blog and watched her videos, the more I felt like I could relate to her. She was never a cow, just deeply disturbed with some heavy issues, and also aware of it. She deleted a lot of her old content, but I remember her having some very interesting and incredibly well written posts about her life and what she was going through with mental illness. Before I knew it I was seriously dreaming about her at night, I would check all her pages like 15 times a day and post things on my Tumblr that I thought she would like so that maybe she would follow me one day. This whole time it was just obsessing from a distance, because I didn´t think she liver anywhere close to me (it´s a pretty big country what are the odds) but then I realized that I recognized the street she had taken a selfie on. It was literally only a 20-minute drive from where I lived. It completely blew my mind and now I couldn´t stop thinking about becoming her friend and hanging out with her and getting to know her. I think that was the main drive behind my obsession; I was never attracted to her in any way, more deeply fascinated and in awe that there was a person who existed nearby that wrote about their feelings and trashy life in a way I could relate to. Anyway, I managed to track down her Facebook (she didn´t have her actual name anywhere so I had to dig deep for that one), all of her family´s Facebooks, her address and where she worked. I kept planning on traveling to her part of the city in hopes of maybe running into her (if it wasn´t clear already - we were never mutuals, I had never talked to her and she did not know who I was). What I imagined would happen if I saw her, I don´t know, but my obsession stayed alive for maybe another 6 months after finding out she lived near by. Then it died down. I still check up on her from time to time and I still kind of want to be her friend, but I´ve come to peace with the fact that it would likely never happen and if it ever does, she´s probably just as wrecked in real life as she appears to be online. I´m guessing I would become bored with her and don´t like her in the end and I don´t want to ruin the magic of how I see her now.

No. 211205

i social media stalk people i use to be close too and ex bf and his new gf, and my bf ex gf. i don't know why i do it. i dont have any ill will towards any of the ppl apart from my bf current ex, but she has contacted people about me and now i feel paranoid they are stalking me back lol. i'm all private tho + blocked their accounts from my mains, but they keep public shit so i feel like they want me to snoop and i enjoy it because they are losers haha. anyway

No. 211240

>been sending messages to someone for weeks on skype in the contact request window trying to talk to them
>just realised that if their thing is a grey question mark it means they blocked you

fuck sake

No. 211252

>>211240
well fuck what did you do for them to block you?

No. 211253

>>211205
You sound psychotic as fuck

No. 211257

>>211253
have you read the thread? that´s probably one of the mildest posts so far

No. 211553

>>211253
hey, if they think they have interesting thoughts that they have started public blogs on fb or designing art etc i'm sure i'm not the only one laughing. but i might be laughing the hardest because VENDETTA VENDETTA lmao



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