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I was never a very popular person; always kept to myself etc. Since i was very young i've always had ne person, whom i looked up to, whether it was a pretty friend, some adult, a fictional chara or a celebrity.
I feel like i don't have any personality of my own, i only let myself get influenced by others; also to the point, like you said, of somehow copying them a bit. For examply there was a girl i founfd really pretty and seh was popular as well and accidently we became friends and from than on i always copyied her clothing style.
When it's about people i don't know in real life i always daydream about them, hold imaginary conversations etc.
If i don't have such a person i admire, i always kinda fel lost, like i don't know how to act, to dress etc.
My dream would be to find out what my own personality really is like, to have an own type of style
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This one time i found out where a person lives and started to go at nights to look at that person's house in hope i would see that person in a window. I just don't know how to talk to people i really like.
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I stalk an ex-teacher's social media, printed out a lot of his photos to keep in a book about him and write all about him (like his address, family, license plate, dates where he switched jobs, moved, etc). I gave him gifts and watched his house once after class to see when he would get home after his other errands (and wrote it down ofc). We talk often and we hung out once. I've had a couple of breakdowns sobbing on the floor when I would think about his family or when I feel like my pursuit is at a standstill. Things I post on social media are geared towards what he would appreciate so that he will "Like" it.
Idk reading my notebook of him and my thoughts calms me down. But sometimes I want to kill him so this shit will end and so I can be close to him and watch him go.
We send each other music a lot though and talk about really interesting things that no one else understands. I feel sorry for him that he's already settled down before realizing that I would be perfect, seriously.
are you me? i do this with my SO's ex (save for bookmarking and saving pictures), but i thrive on the schadenfreude.
we're living our dream in japan, have money, in school, and everything we could want while she's still living with her parents, no education higher than middleschool, can't drive, mooching off of her current bf that she cheated with so she can buy clothes, etc.
haha anon, that's cute in a weird way. >>204455
hmm I definitely have unhealthy obsession with a Youtuber. He's not that big, he's pretty stable on around 120k views per vid. I follow him for two years now and definitely know more than a normal fan, and when he liked my comment on instagram (he hardly ever likes any) I experienced the biggest rush of endorphines in my whole life, I shit you not. Won't go into detail because it's all pretty generic, everyone and their mother is obsessed with a ytber nowadays.
Last year I crushed on someone I would see often on the bus. I started to remember hours he commuted and if I could, I would pick the same time. I once heard him talk with a friend about studying and figured out what he studies. I found his major's timetable. The luck was very strong with me, I would often bump into him in the city, like taking the tram or eating out.
I found him randomly on fb. So now I knew his name, school, major, and I checked his likes… crush mission aborted, he liked a political party with disgusting views, that every edgelord basement dweller in my country supports.
That was a punch, but I thought maybe he did like it ironically… (sure Jan) He also liked bunch of restaurants, they were all in the same area, with the knowledge about the trams he was taking, I figured out where he lived.
Ohhh and I also found out where he lives in our hometown, partly by an accident, partly by being a stalker
The thought that he's a total r9k loser as in >>204524
story caused the obsession to wear off, also I was trying to snap out of it because I wasn't going to make any move, so why would I tire myself more with this pathetic crush. Moving on was the only reasonable step to take
And here I am, half a year later, free of this tiresome feeling. God how I hate crushes, especially the spiralling ones
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I'm obsessed with an infamous "celebrity" that no one should be obsessed with because of his views and what he's done. I use the term celebrity loosely here since he's pretty under the radar. I don't even know why I'm in love with him so intensely even though I acknowledge all of his faults and wrongdoings.
I've reached out to him and got his attention before to the point where he blocked me on his social media (i said some ridiculous, inappropriate stuff to him for lulz) and that's the closest I've gotten to him since he lives on the other side of the world. I've collected old newspaper articles about him and all his first pressed cds, tapes, and records. I also have a journal I made specifically for him and I write about romantic scenarios, love poems, and decorate it with cute stickers and pictures of his face. I check up on his social media everyday, think about him at work, look at pictures of him multiple times a day, and I fantasize about him before I go to sleep every night. No one else has ever come close to making me feel this way.
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I hate spy on my ex 'bestie' from my late high school and early 20s too. Mostly to laugh about her shamble of a life and what a dramatic cock she is.
She wasn't ever really my true friend, I just realized she wasn't after years of my family and friends warning me that she was a jealous bitch just using me.
She used me for car rides, routinely 'borrowed' aka stole my shit and never gave it back claiming she 'lost' them, always showed up for my parties but was never around when I wasn't fun, begged me to buy her shit, and specifically would ask to take her to my college campus so she could man hunt. She was a teen mom on welfare and she was always looking for a man with money so she wouldn't have to keep working at Taco Bell full time.
I think the final straw that made me push her away was when for my 21st birthday she suggest that I buy her and the other user 'friends' I had at the time a party bus so they could drink. Lol, yeah, I was totally going to shell for her to have fun on my own fucking birthday. I would always buy her nice gifts for birthdays/holidays but I wouldn't be given so much as a card in return.
I only stalk her fb, but here's just a small sampling of her cow antics throughout the years:
>Claimed she was assaulted by a 'old man with a white beard' while out 'jogging,' and that the attacker stole her engagement ring. A police report was published that said she had lied about the incident for attention and was undergoing mental evaluation. Later on her fb, she reposted the digital article saying how she was being slandered by police and tried to drum up support, but ultimately she deleted all posts of the incident and never brought it up again.
>Became an extreme munchie claiming that she would have random attacks of unknown pain that required her to go to the ER and have many tests/scans done. She would post pictures and updates to fb for attention as if she were dying of cancer. When the local hospital staff started to shame her for her false alarm antics, she turned munchausen by proxy. She would let her son develop nasty infections, in odd places like behind his ears, until he needed to be taken to the hospital for treatment. Then she'd post statuses asking for prayers for her sick child. However, she stopped doing these things when she discovered that she wasn't getting the kind of attention she wanted from constant hospital visits and that it made her look like a negligent mother. Had a hunch that CPS got involved and it spooked her.
>Got a bunch of disgusting, shitty tattoos of things she thought would make her look more cultured and fun when she has a shallow understanding of said things and not much personality. The tattoos make her look even more hideous. She has no personality and interests of her own and latch on to whatever hobbies and likes her men or friends have because she doesn't know how to enjoy things that don't draw attention from others.
>Has animals in her filthy home that just makes her already dirty home even more filthy. Complains about being tight on money but acts like she's entitled to pets even though the pets would be better served in a more stable environment. Once she reported a series of incidents where she was claiming someone was killing her cats as she let them outside, but my tinfoil is that she was killing them herself for attention so as to be rid of them without making herself seem incapable and getting more pittance attention.
>She just separated her first marriage of two and a half years. Which is ironic considering she was constantly posting bullshit about how they were 'so happy' together, but evidently they were just trying to convince themselves they loved each other. On fb she claimed the husband had a change of feelings a couple months ago, but it's obvious the husband realized he saddled with an ugly loser who didn't want to work. It's hard supporting two kids on welfare and a pizza guy salary, and her less-than-20-hours-a-week PCA gig. She had a new child with this man too, so now she has two kids from different men.
Yeah, I'm a little obsessed. I probably know too much about her life for a person who's so inconsequential in mine these days. I guess it's a little fun having my own personal cow to gossip about.
The only reason I don't do that is because the girls arent really too present online and don't even have Facebook or anything
I feel you anon
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I am obsessed with this half Indian / half white girl from NYC who constantly posts about her shitty life on reddit. She reminds me of how I would have ended up if I was ugly and with shitty parents, I guess.
>Is 30 years old and a virgin
>Never had a bf
>Is ugly (by her own words) but says she is not attracted to the few guys who message her online
>Has a college degree but never has never had a real job
>Complains about living with her dad and supposedly BPD mom but says she can't move out
>Considered being a "little" (as in a dd/lg thing)
I find her posts fascinating because she is pretty eloquent and her posts are pretty detailed. She does have a shitty life, but I think she is lacking perspective (because she seems to think that EVERYONE is living a upper middle class successful NYC lifestyle even though there are tons of poor people in the city). I do think she should start a blog.
She also posted about how she wished I was "hit by a bus" lol
I did find your stories amusing. I appreciate you sharing them with the class.>>204608
I do this to lots of people. For different reasons. Sometimes I'm just interested to see how much I can find out about someone's life, like a private investigator. I don't do anything with the information, but it's kind of like a hobby and it's interesting how one little insignificant thing that the other person mentions can allow me to Google so much information about them and they don't suspect a thing. It gives me thrill to see how much I can research people online.
I used to have a bunch of online friends about 10 years ago now but we've since moved on from that interest and I haven't spoken to either of them directly in years. It would be weird for me to message them out of nowhere (I still have other ways of contacting them) and strike up a conversation, plus I know the interaction would just end up being awkward because we haven't spoken in so long. Like I'm trying to relive the good old days when we were friends and used to talk about the mutual interest. So I'm not going to put myself or them through that conversation.
However I do kinda stalk and watch the girls online on their public blogs and twitters etc. I check it every day, sometimes multiple times. They don't really talk to one another either as far as I know. As for why? Well, it makes me feel less alone, for one. I don't really have any friends in real life and haven't had much like finding another fandom that was as fulfilling as that one, so to follow these two girls, that are around my age by the way, still keeps me connected to that happy time in my life when I had online friends. I dearly wish I could go back to the time in my life when we all first met online and just relive that time in my life again.
And to also compare their lives to mine. It makes me feel a bit better to know that they have gone through the same struggles as me in life. I've been diagnosed as Aspie and I'm preeeeety sure both of them would as well, which is probably why we were all so obsessive over our fandom and one of the reasons why I obsess over them now. It also makes me feel less of a loser to see them interested in childish things when because I feel less bad about it when I do the same.
Another reason is because I wish I lived in their country and had a life like theirs, and had loving families like they do. So I can sort of live through their online blogs in a way. I think I'd be lying if I said I didn't have a crush on either one of them, but my feelings aren't that strong to be honest. I'd love to be friends with them in real life but all of my online friends never live in my city or even state.
Another reason I do this is because it's just one of my Aspie hobbies/obsessions. When I get into things, I get into it deep and with commitment. I don't really have a lot going in my life and don't have the energy to do anything offline. So it's like gossip and drama to follow someone's life without having to expand much energy of your own. Plus it's reassuring and gives me comfort to follow these girls and no matter what happens year after year I know I can look at their twitters and see what they're up to.
oh god, i'm so glad i'm not the only one who's weird like this.
i've done this with 2 celebrities (watching and reading basically anything about them ever) and now my teacher. but god, i hate it, i feel so embarrassed just thinking about it. i'm trying to stop obsessing over my teacher right now, but i see her everyday and she's such an inspiration to me, it's so hard. i'm trying not to be weird and obvious, but i do admit i've walked the dog near her house and went to the shops she goes to more than i should have. i have stopped that now, but the thoughts are still there.
why do you think you guys do it?
i'm not quite sure, i think it stems from idolising the person, maybe being in a weird kind of love with them? i don't think i would like to do anything sexual with her, but i do like the thought of being… taken care of? loved? idk.
nobody would ever guess i'm like this (i look normal and i NEVER talk about it) but i am. there are some good things about it, although far and few between. i started trying to get better grades, reading much more, i'm learning french (she teaches literature and french…) and i'm thinking about pursuing a career in philology or teaching languages.
also, the rush you get from thinking about seeing them is pretty great AND addictive.
(but the guilt, oh god, the guilt!)
sometimes i imagine I'm with the person I'm obsessing over, or even sometimes pretend I am them while I"m doing totally normal shit like washing the dishes or grocery shopping lol it's so embarassing to type out. I think I do it becuase like this anon >>204646
said the rush you get from thinking about them is addictive and also I think I do the roleplay thing because I don't have much personality of my own so adopting someone else's that I admire, even just internally, gives me more confidence.
>>204646>why do you think you guys do it?
and I do it because I love him and it's also an escape to daydream of a life with him. I think my loneliness and lack of close friends or family causes me to have an obsession to engulf myself into. I also wish I could be picked up and put into an established person's life to care for them, cook, clean, do everything and also talk about things that others don't appreciate, study our favorite subject together, etc. just make their life easier and happier.
>the rush you get from thinking about seeing them
Absolutely. It's like falling into the feeling of puppy love over and over. Everyone else is disappointing.>>204648
That's a pretty good idea. Sometimes I think of him being there or as if I'm talking to him while I'm going about my life, or hear him in my head when going through something rough.
I'm at the point where the thrill of one of my stalkees updating with something worthwhile is just a few steps below sex.>>204649
Between this, the mental health threads, and how batshit so many anons seem in /pt/ and /snow/, it seems clear that this place is a magnet for psychos. Not shocked, given the nature of the site.
>>204646>why do you think you guys do it?
OP here. I do it because seeing those I dislike being worse off in life than me makes me feel better about my own pathetic situation.
As for the "internet influencers", it's because I have hardly any friends and none that I share certain important interests with, so pretending these girls are my friends somewhat fills that void.
I think part of the reason for my obsessions is that I never really get crushes IRL because I'm a bit of a recluse and I don't really get lonely being single. I think the obsession is a way for my brain to make up for that with fantasy.>>204773>I like imagining myself being romantically involved with a character they've played in a movie
I do this one all the time lol.
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I keep a folder of links to social media and side accounts (even dead accounts) of my own personal lolcows. i check it nearly everyday for good milk and when i find it, i shit talk about how dumb they are to my friends, who usually know who they are too. i take screencaps of their stupidest moments, save a few pictures of their faces or fanart they've drawn, and dig thru their comments and reblogs to find quality milk. ive even looked up some of their addresses before just to see what their houses looks like so that i can make fun of it. i make sure to pick cows that are at least over the age of 21 (teens doing cringy shit isn't fun cuz yeah they're teens), and are genuinely awful people but they're so deluded that they don't even realize it, because it produces the best content. basically this site, but in private. i think of it like checking a celebrities twitter, only for people i hate. my friend and i sometimes make it a special occasion, when one of our cows messes up big time, we get drunk and have a great time laughing at them all night long. none of them are popular enough (except for holly brown) to warrant their own thread. i don't feel bad for hating them whatsoever. i think of them as examples to be the exact opposite of, even refusing to buy clothes i think they would wear, music i think they would listen to, etc (most of the stuff their into is gaming music and lootcrate fashion anyway, nothing i like). ive only interacted with them lesser than a handful of times, but when i do, it produces the best milk. i'll barely say 5 words to them and they have a lulzy virtuous rant-fest, its great. i know i should feel bad for doing all this, but i honestly don't. they need a reality check, and while i think i could probably step in and give them some advice on how not to be a cringy asshole, i'd rather laugh at their mistakes.
i'm intensely curious, who is it? or at least what kinda celebrity is he, like, musician or something?>>204638
if you think she kept in touch with any other users of these forums, find their social media accounts and find her through their friends, maybe there will be something?
Glad someone else is interested lolhttps://www.reddit.com/user/vcardthrow1
A lot of her posts are hidden because she posts on a private community
I used to have a bunch of her posts saved because I was going to do a writeup, but I deleted it. I think she deleted some posts, like the one where she complained about her parents but wasn't able to move out.
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Of all my time stalking her, no she has not. I feel like she is probably genuinely ugly since she has cystic acne.
I feel like there are people on reddit who would try to go out with her on account of her having a vag without even seeing her pic. But I feel like her standards are too high. I feel like she hates men, so I'm not sure why she is so concerned with dating in the first place.
Here's an example of one of her hidden posts
I haven't seen all her posts so I don't know the depth of her personality as you do anon, but reading that it sounds like she hates herself so god damn much that she's just given up on everything. It's easier to be a self-loathing piece of shit convinced that one can't change than to make herself vulnerable by trying to get out in the world.
I'm sure men make her feel the most insecure, and because she tried to trust the online one who she felt wronged her, she figures any other man will treat her similarly.
It's like a female version of a robot.
It's like r/incels in a parallel universe
Ummm idk why anyone would want to do that b/c she seems like a bitch to me. But you should go message her.>>205210
I don't think she is really like an incel lol
As for poor health, I've had similar problems. To me it sounds like she has depression but has wrecked her body and made her problems worse by taking shit care of her body.
For about a decade I've had this weird off-and-on obsession/hatred for a person I knew on deviantart. I found her when I was about 16 on some other website and looked her up on DA.
She was a particular girl. Younger than me, but a gifted artist. Even now, her old art is still better than most of what I can do. She used to obsessively draw and write fanfics over her ridiculous mary sue self-insert OC and I ate it right up. On one hand, I was incredibly jealous of her skills. On the other, she felt like my own personal lolcow. Once she started uploading selfies to her scraps the hatred/obsession went into overdrive as she was gorgeous. She was the sort of girl who would claim to have the heritage of at least 10 races, and I am not exaggerating. You'd think she had 15 parents. She also claimed to be biracial, which may have been true. My stalking uncovered that while her father is black, her mother is biracial, making her 3/4ths black American. She only seemed to claim black when it put her above other black people. All other times, she was black and a slew of other ethnicities, which she got away with due to her medium skin tone and long hair.
She was incredibly arrogant as well. Sometimes passive-aggressively, sometimes not. She made it no secret that she knew how good looking she was, and how her art skills were above the vast majority of people her age. She openly called herself a prodigy and bragged about her mother's high-paying job and the stuff she'd done. I assumed some of it was bull since some of her 'stories' sounded an awful lot like some of her fanfics. LIke when she claimed to have had a short romance in with a hot Japanese guy when she was in Japan for a relative's wedding. She said he called her his "little Ameriie". BTW, Ameriie is a singer who happens to be Korean and black.
She fancied herself a writer, claiming that was her real passion. Her talent there was strange. Her earlier writing was absolute tryhard garbage. As she got older, the readability improved past borderline My Immortal territory, but even now I can't see her ever finding non-offline success. Ironically, that's what she'd prefer to do. According to her, her art has only ever brought her drama and problems. I guess I can see why. She had a bad problem with art theft that made her eventually throw in the towel.
When I was in my late teens, I on a whim decided to message her on DA. She sent me her Yahoo and from then on we'd chat a bit here and there. Even though I had boyfriends and friends I'd go out with a lot, speaking to her was the highlight of my night. I'd even duck out of hanging out with my real life friends to go and chat with her. Her personality was much milder and humbler than I expected, but I knew it was probably false modesty. I never let her know how close an eye I was keeping on her and she seemed to like me quite a lot. She called me intelligent and pretty and assumed I was much older from how I spoke. When I found out her full name, I googled it looking for more info on her. I ended up with a Facebook, a couple of youtube accounts and several dead social media accounts she'd made for her mary sue. I scoured and collected them all. I couldn't have enough info on her.
One of her trademark traits was her overanalysis of her favorite things. To an autistic degree, leaving these long-winded and pretentious paragraphs under every piece of art or writing or journal she uploaded. I thought it was cringe as fuck, she tried way too hard to sound smart and verbose but devoured it anyway. I loved it without the tiniest bit of irony. I loved her overly dramatic attempts and creating romance out of nothing, those TLDR paragraphs I'd read through multiple times. I especially loved how she couldn't help but self-insert into every female fictional character she took a shine to. Everyone she liked turned into her, and she thought of herself as this irresistible yet incredibly intelligent bombshell guys were always fighting over. I thought it was great.
A couple of years after meeting her I collected enough on her to write an ED article. It got a little bit of traction on the site but soon after I felt really bad (I loved her again) and decided to delete the article. Somehow a friend of hers stumbled across it and passed it onto her. She posted it in a journal and basically admitted that everything I wrote was completely right, laughing about it in an 'oh boy I used to be such a mess' kind of way. For a while, I was a little spooked that she might've known I wrote it, but her demeanor never changed towards me and she always seemed to be really excited to chat. I tried to mirror the typical ED retard speak, and she knew she was more than popular enough to have haters so I suppose she didn't even think I wrote it.
At the time we were also talking regularly on Yahoo messenger. I gleaned that she had some sort of underlying depression. She ended up doing art based on ideas she'd get from our convos. It filled me with this weird sort of glee. I never had any remote interest in any fandom she was in, but seeing her make things both delighted and infuriated me. I loved her shitty melodramatic writing and unique art style but I also wanted to be close friends with her so I could find flaws and humanize what I saw as too ideal for comfort. I was so angry that I couldn't be more like her, but I also wanted her to be her.
Years later, I don't have any contact with her anymore. She's moved on to another obsession, but now that she's a bit older she tends to wear her heart on her sleeve more. Her personality is still melodramatic and tryhard but she drops hints here and there that she's very depressed. I don't know why. She's still got looks and opportunities and people think she's talented. I hate to say that she has little to worry about, but she honestly does. She's since quit a majority of social media and apparently, isolates herself. For some reason or another, she looks back on her old fandoms with disdain, despite being head over hills in the past. She deleted almost all of her donut steel OC art, but I archived most of it. Her old fics are gone, replaced by her newer crap. I still go back and look at my 'her' collection a few times a week. She claims to have quit art for good now, which is a shame. I'd love to see what images are going around in her mind now.
Strangely I never felt jealous of her looks. If anything, I loved her appearance. For a while, I was confused over whether I was attracted to her or not. Eventually, I came to the conclusion that it wasn't romantic or sexual attraction I felt towards her, but a very strong desire to be her friend, or maybe just be her. Since she had a habit of being intentionally vague her age (a practice that I assume is common on social media) I hadn't realized that we were only a year apart until recently. I'd always been under the assumption that she was an actual prodigy since she called herself that a lot in her teen years. Underneath it all, I think we are still incredibly similar. She draws better, her writing gets more attention, she has more money and she suffers prettier. I'm still keeping a close eye on her but I don't think I'll be talking to her anytime soon. She probably doesn't remember me well, and I don't want the person she is now to overwrite the pretnetious and vain version of her I have in my head. That would be significantly less satisfying to love and hate.
Sometimes it is from sites like this and other cow sites, but a lot of times I find them from comment sections of facebook posts. I see someone who comes off as batshit insane by their comments and check their profiles out to see if the insanity goes further.
Sometimes I'll read forums of whacked out shit like people who believe in reptilian shapeshifters and stuff like that, but I find the day to day posts of insane people on facebook to be much more interesting.
I'm with >>206165
I want the username
Anon are you me
From sixteen until twenty I would compulsively have to watch all her videos read all her social media and wished I was her
>>206120>Underneath it all, I think we are still incredibly similar. She draws better, her writing gets more attention, she has more money and she suffers prettier.
God, this is so real. I definitely can relate.
Interesting read, anon.
I mean… why can't you?
If you know for certain that he's interacting with minors in a sexual way you can report that. Or reach out to the families of the kids. Some kids are savvy enough to figure out how to deal with creeps like that - but a lot of them aren't.
What are the chances of him having CP? If he's jerking it to loli and he's unapologetically talking to middle schoolers….
Meant to reply to >>206318
For some reason my post screwed up.
to clarify i don't do this to anyone popular like on this website,
totally average people
sage for dp
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That was… interesting?
We share a lot of similarities, but next to her I am a beaming ray of sunshine and hope for the future.
I am also amazed how surprisingly lucid she seems considering the nature of her novel-length post history.
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ot but… since when Andrzej Sapkowski is a reaction meme, what did I miss
You sound eerily similar to a bloke I used to know.
I miss him
Why do you think you end up strongly disliking the people that you stalk?
I have a few girls, including the current gf of a really abusive ex, and some older men who are stalking and subtweeting me now. I legit just want to understand, please.
Oh my fucking god I feel like people like her would be so much fucking better off if they just quit the internet and social media for a while. No one should be this self conscious, literally ever, and now her bullshit is manifesting as chronic pain. She needs a blood test, a doctor, and to fucking get over herself.
Thanks for posting this. I have episodes of major depression and sometimes I get a little spun out, can't find reasons to care, then I read how ridiculous those thoughts are coming from someone else and it forces me to at least fake it until it's real. Oh my god.
Anon, you responded to. I totally agree.
Also, I just happened to be in NYC for a while. I was in a pretty nice area (Morningside Heights in Manhattan) but even walking around casually for a few days as a tourist it's pretty easy to tell that there are a HUGE amount of diversity in NYC. Lots of the most successful people in the world live in the city, yes, but a ton of very unsuccessful people live there to. Living in NYC should give you an example that not everyone has a polished lifestyle.
I used to be obsessed with Dakota back in 2011,would try to see where she lived/her whole bedroom (i made a plan of it based on her pics)/her whole wardrobe/get rare pics of her/… and try to be like her without making it obvious so i wouldnt look like a creep.
I would never hurt anyone or follow them in real life because i'm just a shy loser and keep to myself,but I get autistically obsessed with people sometimes.
There was also two lolitas I got obsessed with, including one who deleted everything so i spent hours on her friend's tumblrs searching for her pics,looking at the blogs who reblogged them,search her name on several platforms,…
I'm gonna sound like a sjw tumblrtard but shit like this is why i'm convinced most men are absolute trash.
When you get old,they just don't care about you anymore, all they want is some young,cute,fresh meat to stick their dick into
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This girl is really at it again
Yeah, there kind of is? Like >>206637
she needs to get over herself.
She makes these posts on reddit several times weekly over the last two or so years, and not one thing has improved in that situation at the time. She is so whiny that not even /r/rasiedbynaricsissists, which loves to take the side of the posts almost 100% of the time, would side with her. They suggested to her that she move out and she refused.
There was just another post by her, which is in a private community, implying that everyone else has it in life like Don Draper. She acts like other people don't have to work hard and struggle to get what they want.
I think her problem is that she has spent her life sheltered in a mostly white, upper middle class community (it seems most of her friends are like that), which has caused her problems in her world view. But it also doesn't make any sense in light of her being from NYC, which is one of the most diverse places in the world.
I think it's ok to vent some, but when your posts literally consist of you venting all the time and doing nothing to accomplish your situation to an audience of people that will give you asspats and confirm whatever unhealthy worldview you have, it's time to stop.
She needs to get herself on disability or get institutionalized or SOMETHING. Hell, she has a college degree, not sure why she didn't bother to teach English in Asia in the decade since she graduated.
I've gone on long enough, I'm just not sure why people are so sympathetic to her. I feel like if this was a guy posting the exact same words, people would here would be ripping into him. lmao
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OP of that post here. Here's an example of one of her fanfics, something slightly more recent (2009). Just an example of how pretentious and blowhard she is about her own writing. Just thought through this was enough to make me almost fall in love again. PS, this is nowhere near the longest tag list she's put on a fanfic.
I obsess over cute girls (usually around my age)
Not only because i'm probably gay or bi at the very least, but mostly because i wanna be them.
There was this one girl before who was really pretty,really rich,huge burando wardrobe,loved by her parents who were rich and totally supported lolita,lots of friends,…
I have assburger fixations on things,including people. So I stalked all of her social media,tried to find pics of them on google,wayback machine for her old blogs,through her friends accounts,tumblrs (she was quite popular back then so there are quite a few pics of her laying around)…
It's so satisfying in a way yet i feel so depressed and creepy after a while.
Dw i do the same.
I hatewatch two of my ex-friends that were shitty to me. and as petty as it may sound, knowing that i do better than them,look prettier (one of them started smoking and is obsessed with looking young with a nymphet aesthetic so she looks godawful and cringy, the other became a fakeboi and is obese lol) and have good friends (one of the has no friends and is begging on ig for them)
I forgot to mention that she's the type of weeb you find on language apps. She's trying to get an AA in East Asian history, lmfao.
I know I shouldn't let it bug me, but it hurts that he's cuffing some whale from the local anime club. I keep telling myself that if he's willing to fuck her he isn't worth my time.
i'm starting to develop a new obsession on a complete stranger. looking up court cases from nearly 2 decades ago and getting excited just reading about some random misdemeanors. shit's so weird now that i think about it, but it feels like a drug>>208993>It just gives me a huge rush but at the same times calms me down.
same here! you wouldn't expect this kinda thing to be so emotionally fulfilling but somehow it is
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Yeah, I online stalk a girl who I have mutual friends with, but have never met myself. Looking at her facebook profile, she seems very well-put together: good-looking, intelligent and high ambitions. But then I found her reddit account and some of her old blogs and now I realize her life is a fuckin' mess. I also suspect she may have some personality disorder like BPD or similar(?)
>She was aiming for medical school and made posts on reddit and facebook as if she already KNOWS she'll be accepted. Like "before I go to med school in the fall, I'm going to…" and took multiple selfies with a white lab coat and a stethoscope and posted them to facebook. Some people on reddit were even congratulating her on being accepted.
>Found out later she had a GPA under 3.5 with almost no volunteer experience…
>She must have gotten rejected pre-interview (no surprise) because she later deleted all her reddit posts and facebook selfies about it
>Around the same time, she cheated on and dumped her fiance on Valentine's Day, despite proposing to HIM only a few months prior. I found out she's dumped previous bfs on holidays, which makes me think it's purposefully done to gain maximum attention/drama.
>Has a history with "monkey branching" her boyfriends and dumping them out of the blue, only to be dating someone else not long after
>Asks for advice on reddit about how to live frugally because she's living entirely off government loans and child benefits (got pregnant with her ex after 3 months of dating), and how she can just "barely make it work"
>On facebook, she describes herself as a "fiscal conservative" and goes to expensive salons to change up her hair color every month, buys designer clothes, pays for photographers to do a glamorous photoshoot
>Wrote on her blog about how much she hates her hometown because it's full of "hicks" and because she's desperate for money but no one is hiring, but she refused to apply to a certain coffee shop chain to "keep her sanity". (I've worked at the same place, it's really not bad at all).
>Had a four paragraph long, flowery biography about herself on said blog
>Will sometimes selfpost to reddit and get 1000+ upvotes, but I've noticed she will change something about her appearance a few days after one of her selfies don't get as many upvotes as usual
Anyways, I guess the moral of the story is even if someone seems really put-together on social media, it may just be a facade to their real life: which is a chaotic mess of stupidity and impulsive decisions.
Fiscal conservative is just a Republican who is too ashamed to stand by their parties wacko social ideals. Essentially they are all about laissez faire and all that shit
I hate them cuz they're always misinformed
This isn't much of an obsession but just casual stalking out of interest, but I follow this one girl that just piques my interest being the brat she is. Trying to keep it somewhat vague to hide my stalker ass.
>Web artist (duh)
>In her mid-20s, unemployed, has no degree, no work experience at all
>Claims to have a severe case of PTSD and depression
>Can't keep her stories straight about her childhood and adolescence, always makes herself out to be the extreme victim of traumatizing experiences. I believe some of them to be true, but when her posts in the past contradict some of the stuff she's opened up about it feels fishy. And of course, she leaves out all the shitty things she's done to other people.
>She's also overweight and has a massive complex about it. OBSESSES over her weight and occasionally works out, but can't cut out the excessive binging on junk food. On the other hand she keeps going on about how chubby girls are so sexy and cute, possibly as a coping mechanism.
>Self harms and makes a huge, public deal about it
>Has a boyfriend who started out normal, but she has dragged him down with her, making him a husk of a man who's too much of a pussy to leave the toxic relationship
>She has no impulse control, buys shit she doesn't really need with the money she doesn't have and then cries about being poor
Despite all of this she manages to be one of the most entitled people I've ever seen. She's rude, very self-centered, skips out on her responsibilities while blaming everything on ~m-muh depression~. Despite her continuous hate for her "ugly" looks she posts selfies all the time. She deliberately eggs trolls on with her pompous "bad bitch" attitude and cries for help and reassurance when they attack her back. I have to say that I mostly follow her to remind myself of never sinking to that level of attention whoring and life habits in general. I do take pity on her boyfriend though, he seems like a wimpy guy who just got caught in the middle. Then again he also enables her terrible behavior, making her sink even lower.
I engage in the same type of stalking! My personal cow is a "beauty queen" who is a compulsive liar and just intrigues me in every way.
>Mid 20's, did some modeling when younger>claimed to go abroad with a modelling contract, in reality she won a competition to manage an old single women's magazine in the country and got paid peanuts for it>Then chose "to become an au-pair", in reality used her looks to find single men looking for "au-pairs". Hooks around the country after getting bored of having to do actual work for the magazine.>She goes quiet for a bit, in retrospect she got lip fillers and implants during this time>re-surfaces in Dubai as a "hostess" at a VIP club>google around and find out the club is a front for escorting, find her ig besties escorting advert
>she starts travelling with her ig bestie and shows up in all fancy events across the world, coincidentally events that are known for having escorts shipped in>re-surfaces back in her home country and blogposts about being such an adventurer and how she was "backpacking" her way and hustling>starts dating an edgy alt-right trustfund guy, who she convinces she's the perfect aryan virgin waifu>starts ranting about being a traditional waifu and moderate about sex etc…>starts posting how she's in medschool at this certain university, google around and find out that they rejected her in reality>posts hashtags that she thinks make her look liked she's in medschool, but in reality they're words she has made up>starts pretending she's also a professional pilot and is enrolled fulltime to become a COMMERCIAL PILOT>while she's still claiming to be fulltime medschool student
I'm always waiting for her new lies, since they just get worse and worse everytime
This also sounds amazing
How the fuck does the guy not know about her past? Seems dumb as fuck to not know.
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I want to be this guy's little sister even though he already has one. At first I thought it was just a lie since he runs this youtube series and I never saw his sister until I found his old tumblr where he has a picture of him and her together.
I still want to have him "adopt" me as his little sister anyways. I want him to pat me on the head and say "lil' sis" to me since I find that to be so much pure and special than being just a friend or girlfriend to him. I've seen how he treats his gfs and it's off-putting to me since he'll slap their ass and call them babe.
Maybe it's because my real big brother died and now I'm lonely without him so I want to have a substitute.
Maybe it's because I'm aromantic and asexual that I fear any other kind of relationship with a man so being a "little sister" is the best platonic relationship I can hope for.
Either way, I've been following this guy's instagram and twitter especially to see if he'll attend any con so I can go there too to hopefully see/meet him.
We can certainly pass for siblings, it's one of the reasons why I want to be his sister because we look quite alike and have similar tastes.
But I know this is fucked up and I'm still super shy so I don't think it'll ever happen.
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I've been in love with a musician who lives across the world from me for a really long time now, to the point it's turned into a horrible obsession.
The first time I heard his music and saw his face, I fell in love. Ever since then, I've been deluding myself into having a chance with him.
My current photo album of him has over 2,000 photos– no duplicates and some hard to find. I've spent 500+ dollars on merchandise of his band and him. I have also taken several trips to see him just to be able to say a few words to him.
I message him every day words of encouragement, even though I don't think he reads them… (He's pretty popular, I guess) mostly because he's getting old, and I worry he'll retire from music.
When I see pictures of him (even accidentally), I start crying because he's so handsome (And his personality is A++ too, even if it's fabricated.)
Actually the first time I saw him, I cried a little bit and apologized, and he told me it was okay. I still get a little emotional over him telling me that and his voice echoes in my head.
I have post notifications on for all his social media, so even if he posts at 5 am and I'm asleep, my phone wakes me up so I can see what he posted.
It's even gotten to the point where I get jealous if other girls like him, like a "I like him more than you do" kind of thing
I know I have no future with him, especially since he's a somewhat well-known musician who gets mad pussy, but I love him so much and I can't really stop myself.
..The worst part is I have a boyfriend and he knows how obsessed I am with this guy and hates it but I can't stop even for him.
Are you happy, anon? Does your relationship make you happy? Are you satisfied with your life? Don't answer with "yeah my boyfriend is so caring" or "well I have a good job and make decent money" - like regardless of if those things are true, are they making you happy?
I'm in a somewhat similar situation and I know how dumb it sounds but it took a therapist to make me understand how unhappy I am and that's the reason why I have obsessions. Of course if you're unfulfilled in your life, you're going to seek out something so perfect and easy to understand, even though you KNOW it's a false image.
You could continue with this obsession, or you could make an effort to make your real life satisfying enough. I wouldn't blame you for sticking with the former because I'm struggling too
Good luck anon
I have a bad habit of “social sphere stalking” - I’ll become mildly obsessed with a certain person and by proxy start checking up on their closest links, then their closest links, etc. (For example obsessed with a guy, so start checking up on guy’s ex and his baby mama, then ex’s/baby mama’s friend circle…)
I’ve been doing this for years because it just seemed that cool people attracted other cool people, and I probably (definitely) just wished that one day I would be cool enough to be part of those spheres.
It started off with MySpace though. That shit was lethal because it was so static; easy to create a facade of perfection when all you needed was the “right” profile and a few flawless photos. Much harder to do on IG/FB, which is constantly updated and much more interactive (captions/statuses). Used to stalk weird arty types like Allison Harvard obsessively back then, as well as plastic scene kids like Izzy Hilton and Victoria Murder (embarrassing but I was like 12 so). Used to save their photos and copy their profile styles, and imagine what their lives were like in my head then try really hard to be exactly like that. Have been diagnosed with BPD as an adult though, so maybe that’s why stepping into someone else’s personality/life appealed to me so much.
Also do the usual checking up on significant exes/friends I’m no longer friends with/girls who bullied me at school/partner’s exes. Always interesting to see where people end up, but I wouldn’t call it obsessive…
I just stated I’m white and honestly it’s rather the guy then that is racist and I know some that specify white girls over black girls or black girls over white girls.
It’s the same with all these weebs nowadays that want a asian gf or a “nazi” waifu to kick them (german girls) and don’t want any other race. I’ve seen that shit enough. I talked with stupid guys like that
- THAT - is racist my dude and it’s disgusting and stupid honestly
I've tried but none of them ever take me seriously. "it's just a celebrity crush, most girls have one" is the response I usually get from any counselor I've tried. currently trying to find a decent one that's not just "and how does that make you feel?" over and over>>210168
I love my boyfriend to death but there's a lot of things he does that could be considered abusive, and that might be why I have this obsession because I fantasize this person as being sweet and loving and stuff like that, instead I've got someone who hurts me>>210170
He definitely is enabling it.. he enables a lot of my bad behaviors. but I do the same to him, always tell him it's okay that he did something wrong. He certainly is uncomfortable with it and actually got super jealous when he saw my shrine… but he doesn't tell me to stop being obsessed or get my shit together, he just lets me. Maybe because he knows theres no way and with how protective he is over me, I could never do anything with this person, so he thinks its at least.. not something I have to stop for him>>210173
I'm definitely not happy, my life has totally gone to shit. I'm a neet with no job, no family, and no education due to years of drug and alcohol abuse, also a lot of trauma stuff as a child basically made me terrified of the world (scared to go outside for too long, scared of driving. I'm okay going on planes or other countries because nothing happened with those.) so I can't do much. It's miserable and I'm just hanging on by staying with my boyfriend because he takes care of my pathetic ass as much as he treats me like shit.
Probably part of the obsession for me is this fantasy I've made in my head that this person will start dating me and take me in and be ~amazinggg~ and marry me and we'll be happy forever and ever and I'll be happy with him and get better physically. It's unrealistic and probably impossible but I have that stupid thought in my head that maybe that'll happen.
I need a decent therapist for sure… but I don't even know if that can totally pull me away from it honestly
There's a guy from uni that I kind of talked to from time to time because of mutual "friends" (more like he was hanging out with my close friends at first and started making fun of them all of a sudden, but never bothered me for some reason) and who dropped out of college because we're not learning anything useful. I found his twitter, tumblr and instagram accounts through one of his friend's professional twitter so I check them from time to time out of sheer morbid curiosity. He tends to post TMI about himself and his "private" life while acting/typing like a catty bitch on his accounts that are tied to his real identity (his real first name, where he lives, his job, and his face). Although he posts a lot about going out with friends and traveling abroad so it also makes me a bit jealous because I can't afford doing pretty much anything because of the lack of free time, money and support from my family. But it's mostly out of morbid curiosity, I'm not obsessed but there are many times when I have nothing better to do than browsing websites so I end up checking his accounts.
There's someone else I don't know irl but I used to talk to a lot on tumblr. We were mutuals and she saw me as a friend because we were both a into the same video games and anime and all that. She became a SJW over time and started vaguing about me more and more often and imply insulting things about me so I decided to ignore her and unfollow her but she didn't notice. I deleted my tumblr, made a twitter account and she decided to follow me there so I did the same again, out of curiosity more than to make up with her. I don't think she really realised that I muted her account. At some point I was complaining about dumb fandom shit (I think it was mlm fakebois) and she unfollowed right after and vagued about me again. I still check her twitter sometimes and she spends her time posting her terrible art even though she graduated from an art school, how anime is problematic despite her watching them all the time and gay pairings in overwatch and just being passive-aggressive in general. So basically she became more and more boring. Turns out, months after she unfollowed me and insulted me behind my back, she liked one of my tweets, so she might be doing the same thing. I should block her and move on I guess.
>>210203>there's a lot of things he does that could be considered abusive, and that might be why I have this obsession because I fantasize this person as being sweet and loving and stuff like that, instead I've got someone who hurts me
Drop his ass. I've been in a pretty similar place and I know how scary it is to cut off the one person who is your companion and jump straight into the void of being single… but taking the trash out from your life allows someone who will treat you right to show up
(I assume your bf is uninterested in going to therapy/couple counselling and changing his behavior).
Sure you have to put in an effort to find someone, but it's better than wasting your life on someone who is making you unhappy.
Regarding your obsession - maybe a therapist that is specialized in helping addicts would be more helpful to you? Especially if they had contact with people addicted to porn or internet etc.
I used to be friends with this girl briefly on fb, turned out to be a total sjw cow, claims she's a vampire, and a witch, into ddlg kink, and a performer, a poet, a model, etc etc, as well as a transboi. In essence a total identifarian cow. Like she literally claims to have light sensitivity headaches due to being a vampire, claims to be a poet for her useless virtue signaling diatribes, refers to herself as a "goddess" when she's utterly hideous and repulsive. Totally ugly and annoying and self important. Deleted her for being insufferable well over 2 years ago but can't stop checking her social media to laugh at her. I would have posted her in here with screenshots but I don't for fear of someone cowtipping and spoiling my fun. I know I sound horrible judging her but something about her is just so hateable. she's the kind of person to take a shit and write a novel about how inspirational it is for everyone, her, a transboi vamp witch performer sexiest model uwu
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top fucking kek
didnt know such a term exists.
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I'm dating a stalkerish guy if that counts. It doesn't bother me because I don't care about relationships anyways while he tries everything to keep ours together so it works out, kind of.
I mean, he's a great guy, he says weird stuff occasionally and seems to get jealous pretty easily even though I act pretty harshly against everyone I know because I don't like people anyways but I'd wish he'd just accept that it's extremely hard to talk to him when he treats me like some sort of tsundere princess goddess who does no wrong and deserves the amount of praise the chinese collectively give to Mao Zedong when I just want to be left alone and play shitty PS1 games on my emulator.
I really don't understand it. He's extremely attractive, intelligent, and has a bunch of fans and friends but he still obsesses over someone who plainly hates people.
There's another guy I know who is extremely smart, attractive, and rich as well who attempted to stalk me (he later tried to dox me but he had all the information wrong since I just input random shit on About Me's or profiles) and then claimed that he loved me on multiple occasions and then he'd talk about how much he loves girls of my race and random bullshit like that. He's somewhat of a dangerous guy so I try not to talk to him often. I don't fucking understand it.
There was another guy, some European dude who attempted to stalk me but kept having issues trying to figure out how to find any profiles I had online because of my usernames on websites sounded like something that would be an English-sounding name (but wasn't) or something. I burned that bridge after he kept messaging me at random hours of the day asking for me to play games with him because he's famous on one game or something.
Then there was a French guy who obsessed with me and then asked me out and when I said no, he went on a rant (in broken English, no less) about Catholicism and how I'm a sinner and I'm going to hell for not dating him.
There were more but the rest are boring to tell.
And I really don't understand it. I'm not smart, I'm not attractive (I've been mistaken as a boy multiple times IRL), I'm not rich, I even pretend to be guys online but that attracts gay guys. There's no rhyme nor reason to it. It's why I wish I had more female friends because they're less likely to do this shit to other girls.
I've always had stalker-ish tendencies, I remember in middle school (and of course high school) I would stalk whatever guys I found attractive/had a crush on. I was also kind of obsessive with some celebrities, kind of a husbando collector. It would often be ruined by my finding out some aspect of their personality that ruined them for me, so while I still do this sort of thing I have to walk a careful line between finding out everything about them (which I want) and having to resist because it will ruin them and I just want a happy mental image of them beyond appearance. I get really emotional about it and I can't stop even though I'm actually married at this point. I think it's because I've always been a fucked up loner with no friends, I'm basically a shut in now (I won't say NEET because I do work sometimes, but still). I actually stalked my now husband too, that one ended up working out well and while I love him I still have the same compulsion. I have a new crush now though and I'm really trying to resist looking up more.
Of course that is outside the typical "stalking" that goes on here with cows. At one point I had a personal lolcow that I still check up on every once in a while. I never shared her here because she's the skittish type.
That's the point. My father's the same way too so I got it from him.
Thanks, I guess.
once did it and it turned out she was boring and ugly up close
classic case of this>>204469>When you obsess over a person and start to idealise them then they can only let you down when you get to know them for real.
So a couple years back (I think I was around 16-17) i stalked this girl on Tumblr pretty bad. She was mutuals with someone who had a pretty popular account, so she had a decent following, too. Anyway, I started going through her selfie and personal-tag, which at first was just to make me feel better about myself, because she was kind of a mess. Then the more i read her blog and watched her videos, the more I felt like I could relate to her. She was never a cow, just deeply disturbed with some heavy issues, and also aware of it. She deleted a lot of her old content, but I remember her having some very interesting and incredibly well written posts about her life and what she was going through with mental illness. Before I knew it I was seriously dreaming about her at night, I would check all her pages like 15 times a day and post things on my Tumblr that I thought she would like so that maybe she would follow me one day. This whole time it was just obsessing from a distance, because I didn´t think she liver anywhere close to me (it´s a pretty big country what are the odds) but then I realized that I recognized the street she had taken a selfie on. It was literally only a 20-minute drive from where I lived. It completely blew my mind and now I couldn´t stop thinking about becoming her friend and hanging out with her and getting to know her. I think that was the main drive behind my obsession; I was never attracted to her in any way, more deeply fascinated and in awe that there was a person who existed nearby that wrote about their feelings and trashy life in a way I could relate to. Anyway, I managed to track down her Facebook (she didn´t have her actual name anywhere so I had to dig deep for that one), all of her family´s Facebooks, her address and where she worked. I kept planning on traveling to her part of the city in hopes of maybe running into her (if it wasn´t clear already - we were never mutuals, I had never talked to her and she did not know who I was). What I imagined would happen if I saw her, I don´t know, but my obsession stayed alive for maybe another 6 months after finding out she lived near by. Then it died down. I still check up on her from time to time and I still kind of want to be her friend, but I´ve come to peace with the fact that it would likely never happen and if it ever does, she´s probably just as wrecked in real life as she appears to be online. I´m guessing I would become bored with her and don´t like her in the end and I don´t want to ruin the magic of how I see her now.
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Holy shit, my ex was like this too. Full on narc with a worrying interest in teens. He even openly told me he browses the dark web and likes shota/lolicon.
I stalk him and his new gf sometimes, his new gf has a closed insta acct and no other social media. I've even been tempted in the past to make a dummy insta acct and fill it with stuff I know they're both into and follow her account to see if she will accept it so I can stalk her.
Weirdly enough, a few months back I got a really odd message on Instagram too from what looked like a dummy account saying that my ex wouldn't leave them alone, like in a sex pest kind of way. I couldn't work out who it was at all, someone suggested to me it was someone trying to get revenge on him for something and was trying to frame him, as the message screenshots looked like they had replies but the person had deleted their own to make it appear like he was constantly bugging whoever it was that was sending the messages. Possibly someone who he had flirted with online, had sex with then ghosted. I had speculated it was him behind the account trying to contact me indirectly too. I ended up messaging him telling him I thought someone was trying to frame him and he played dumb.
Another unhealthy obsession I had was this girl I knew through Tumblr that was fairly popular. She was fairly self-obsessed. She was the type of girl that played off that she was sweet and couldn't harm a fly to her friends but would be ignorant and disinterested if I or anyone else she seemed to take a disliking to tried to talk to her. She had a really nasty bitchy side that always got overlooked. Pissed me right off. Me and my friends would stalk her and talk shit about her for a long time. I still feel pretty salty towards her because of some shit that happened where she essentially accused me for other peoples actions and when I tried to straighten it out she just ignored me. Like, flat out just left any messages I sent her trying to make her feel better about a situation I wasn't even responsible for, ignored.
I also had an obsession with a DA artist for a while. I would check her acct every day and imitate her style sometimes. This one wasn't too bad as I held little to no malice towards her, I more just looked up to her I guess. She's fairly successful now, I think she works for Cartoon Network.
When I was younger, say 11-13 I was really obsessed with a certain scene queen (kek) and I spent hours figuring out how she did her hair, tracking down where she brought certain clothing or makeup items and buying them for myself, even if they were secondhand and overpriced, it had to be the EXACT same thing. I remember watching a video of hers frame by frame back for like half hour just to figure out the eyeliner she was using and then tracked down old stock on ebay and bought it. I watched all her yt videos and planned on starting my own channel basically copying her video topics and the order they where posted even down to what hair/clothes she wore in them but making small differences so I wouldn't get caught copying (which I would of lmao)
I did a similar thing with a few tumblr artists, mainly averyniceprince/barleytea (who has a thread on snow now funnily enough) reading through all every single post on her Tumblr from start to finish is what started it, then I went to her old blog and read all through that countless times. I used the same software and brushes, even copied colours and I bought the same exact art supplies as her (even when shipping/import costs where huge) and followed almost all the blogs that she did, watching all the anime, documentaries, films she recommended. I was a bit worse with my obsession with emi than I was with the scene girl, I waybacked all her websites and blogs, and when I started my own tumblr I planned to copy her first layout and the context of her first few posts, changing layouts like she did. Even taking a selfie at the same angle she had for hers. I even chose a url that had the same amount of words in it. I planned to join a large popular fandom that would drive me out and cause me to start over on a new blog that what happened with her and the hs fandom. I checked her twitter everyday and read through years worth of tweets. When I say copying I mean more the context, say her first post was a random doodle then a reblog of something, then art, I would follow the same formula but change the subject matters. It stopped when I found her snow thread and realized shes pretty lame and her art isn't all that great. I still follow her but art has gotten worse and it makes me sad, I look back on her old posts for nostalgia sometimes.
I've realized now that I copied the exact 'formulas' of peoples posting habits bc I believed that was how they gained internet fame, which I wanted very badly. Yup, not via getting lucky bybeing pretty or having a viral video like the scene chick, or being part of a large fandom and pandering to it like emi, its all to do with the order and context of what you post!, is what I thought. Also I hated myself a lot and wished every night I could be someone else. Also with emi I was jealous of her living in nyc and attending SVA (I wanted to be a cartoonist for a long time) and paying for it all with commissions, though reading her thread showed me her parents paid for all her shit for her. I was in my teens during all this and thinking back on it embarrasses me a lot. I don't do this at all anymore, any anon who are trying to copy others like I did, please know that being your genuine self is what makes you stand out, no one wants a copy of someone else!
i'm alternating between feeling sympathetic and frustrated with her outlook, particularly because of her upper middle class background and the access it's given her to a college education and expensive procedures like cortisone shots and rhinoplasty. it sounds like she is too hopelessly depressed to actualize any change of routine that could potentially improve her quality of life. i assume she can't move out of her parent's house because housing in NYC is so expensive and she is…too sheltered to move to another city even though she has nothing going for her in NYC? she's so concerned with what she doesn't have that she doesn't seem to consider using what resources are at her disposal to her advantage, and that's what's frustrating about her.
what's up with the post she made about wishing you were hit by a bus, anon? i think i'm obsessed with this girl and obsessed with trying to make sense of her situation. her anonymity makes it even more thrilling lol. i'd love to know more.
How about we exchange some tips? http://stalkscan.com/
is a great tool for casual stalking. You can also just use it for fun to see how embarrassing and cringy you've been on fb years ago lol
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i cyberstalk a fairly well-known streamer that i've had an on-and-off crush on since 2014, but i don't interact with him. i called his house phone once back in 2015 but some old asian lady picked up (he's a white dude who lives alone in his parents' old house), and i panicked afterwards. i also have his address memorized and use it as a placeholder now and then. haven't done anything more than that.
there's a clique of fakebois in his fanbase that are obsessed with the image of him to the point of IDENTIFYING with his likeness. they bug the shit out of me, but at the same time i play with the idea of dumping all my info on him into their discord just to see how they'll fuck themselves over with it.
i honestly don't know why i like him as much as i do. dude's chill, introverted, and has above average looks, but seems incredibly aromantic and his taste in music and film is as typical alternative white guy as it gets. i guess his singleness intrigues me?
I wouldn't say it's "unhealthy" but I do have a weird obsession with someone I've met.
He's basically a Chris-Chan type who puts his whole life on the internet for everyone to see. He, like many others, has this dream of being a big YouTuber or cosplayer or film director but is seriously lacking in any kind of talent and personality. He's like a lapdog to female voice actors or cosplayers with any level of fame (most of whom are well-known lolcows here) and he'll obsessively message them online, freaking out when he gets a response as if they were big "celebrities". He'll hop onto whatever the latest trend is and do a really poor job of it. He's basically perpetually trapped in that cringey weeb phase tweens go through where they become obsessed with a certain character or fandom for a brief period of time and they try convincing everyone around them that they're a demon hunter or an 18th century British gentleman or something bizarre like that by wearing a trenchcoat and costume jewellery and speaking with a half-assed accent. Except he's a grown ass man and he goes through this cycle every month and contradicts his interests from the previous obsession.
I know his working hours, what part of the country he's in at any time, what he ate that day and who he's with and it's not even because I'm stalking him, but because he makes all that information public with really lengthy vlogs, Instagram posts of half-eaten food and even his GPS location on Snapchat. He even makes his sexual fetishes completely public by liking and sharing images/videos and I know what club/bar he's in on any given night because he'll have a story up on Insta/Snapchat about it and he'll ask to meet up with people. I see him often at events and for some reason, I just find it so entertaining. I love keeping an eye out for him and just seeing what he's doing.
The best part is that even though he has a lot of social media accounts and information out there, he's still pretty unknown. He's like my own personal lolcow. I'm reluctant to tell people about him for fear of cow-tipping and him taking down his videos or making his social media private. I've only told my most trusted friends and they keep a look out for him at events too lol. Sometimes I'll speak to people who already are aware of him and they have the same reaction as me, tell me that they find him fascinating and how they're afraid to tell anyone else about him for fear of him becoming too popular.
I've considered posting about him on Snow but I can't. Even though I find him hilarious and more people knowing about him would add to the fun, I really don't think he deserves any kind of negative response. Yeah he's weird, but he's harmless and I wouldn't be able to control what people send him or what they do with his personal information. I know he'd shut down his social media if he saw that info being discussed online. I think assholes like Onision and Margo deserve getting gossiped about here but not this guy.
Oh wow I totally didn't know who the anon was talking about – but now I can see the connection.
I mean, if it really is this streamer then I can get why anon has an on and off crush on him. I have the same, just less cyberstalkery and more schoolgirl crush. I like his sense of humor and he doesn't SCREAM AT EVERY LITTLE THING like other streamers/LPers do. Makes for good streams to fall asleep to honestly.
I'll post this here because I think it fits the topic and this needs more exposure.
I think she's scared that he'll do something but I'm not sure. He's been doing it for months if not years. A few weeks ago he started spamming one of her pictures so much there were like 100 comments only made by him. Some fans of hers started to call him out and he started to get angry. Then that guys mother came to the comment section and started to insult people as well. When it became too much Natalie responded to one of his comments and said something like "please if you don't have anything nice to say I'll have to block you". So he said no I won't do anything or whatever but continued to spam her comment section again. Even his mother tried to guilt trip her into contacting him. This went on for a while until two weeks ago or so where he attempted suicide. He swallowed 30 Carbamabezine tablets and took videos before it. Even his mother reposted one of his videos before the suicide attempt and tagged Natalie in it. It shocks me that she is enabling him. Then the posts stopped for a few days and once he was released from the hospital he started spamming again. This guy is insane he thinks they are in a relationship and constantly threatens to kill himself if she ever "cheats" before deleting the comments.
Idk if it has anything to do with my motivation but my friends hate e-famers. Hate. I was at an event where there was another e-famous Lolita I admire and I was going to compliment her on her coords and ask where her headdress was from, but the friends I was with started bitching like "ughhh but I hate her she thinks she's so great get better taste" even though she's probably the least vain e-famer I follow. Funny story, she followed me on insta after the event, I got excited and it slipped out of my mouth and my friends were just like "ok, why do you care?".
I want to be well-known and admired but what if my friends start bitching about me, too?
Haha man I have issues, I'm going to wrap up this rant now.
Alright, weird as fuck confession time because reading this thread has made me feel a little better haha.
So a couple of months ago I found this girl being talked about on an oldish thread here at lolcow. She looked really familiar and I realized she was actually the ex of someone I dated over a year ago. A couple of people were saying how she bullied them or generally said mean stuff, a lot of it sounded exactly like some of the stuff she said to me. A mutual friend told me that she said things because my bf at the time/her ex told her I was saying all kinds of horrible stuff about her. I didn't believe it at the time but looking back it's 100% believable.
Anyways, All of the sudden I started seeing her everywhere, it looks like she has some people who don't like her on cgl as well. She also started popping up on my instagram feed, turns out she has a big following. It all just had a really strange feeling, like she was showing up everywhere I looked all of the sudden.
Here's the probably weirdest part, despite her talking trash on me and despite seeing multiple people say she said the same things to them, I have the strangest urge to befriend her for some reason. Like, I keep looking at her Instagram and facebook, probably more than I should. She's really cute and stylish and we seem to type in almost the exact same way, say and post about a lot of similar things. I just have this strange overwhelming urge to message her and apologize for the whole misunderstanding. It's highly frustrating because I'm normally way more rational about things, and I know logically that doing that would probably just kick up old drama. It's just frustrating as fuck that someone I actually think is really cool thinks I've said all these awful things about her. Rationally she probably is way over it and I'm the only one obsessing over this, what is wrong with me????????
She posted recently and mentioned she looks like the lady in this commercial https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=05dIbtxUEgQ
who I think is like kind of cute?
>>219057>super bad friendship gone awry where he just wanted me dead>made all these fucked up references to me being in pain/raped/dead
I had an ex that did the same thing to me and tried as hard as possible to spread it over the entirety of the internet. He attacked every insecurity and made up every lie about a female in the mgtow book. Then he started to write the violent and aggressive stuff about rape and wishing I'd die. Sick fantasies, basically.
All I could do to get it to stop was make up an emasculating lie about him among the social groups he was posting to, and not respond to anything he sent me after that.
Police don't do shit for these threats and won't do shit for you besides tell you to get off the internet and change your email.
(Back when I was 19 I dated a controlling older man who sperged out once when I didn't answer my phone as I napped after college class. He called my house phone and threatened to cut my entire family with a chainsaw and string our guts on our lawn. Parents called the police and they wrote it off as a lover's quarrel–yeah, police don't do shit until you're dead–to reiterate).
He even sent me threatening videos.
Eventually he got over me after two or three years of abuse.
Hate to say "give it time," but lay low. These psychopaths eventually find new targets. It has little to do with you as a person or depression. These are people who are trying to assert power over others when they're otherwise powerless, little men irl.
Sorry for the rant, but this shit strikes my nerves.
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ugh i've been cyber stalking this guy since i was in 6th grade. i'm currently 24.
to be fair he had been leading me on for all about seven years i think?
it just all started with a dumb note i give him at the end of sixth grade saying that i liked him. he seemed to react positively to it but it all kind of went to shit cause middle school dramu and what not. since then it was off and on communication with him talking about how much we liked each other, but every time i wanted to get together and meet up he'd always abruptly backed out and straight up ghosted me. it was an almost neverending cycle of bullshit up until my second year of college.
a few months after that i met my current bf. we've been together for 4 years but despite that fucking asshole from the past has been haunting me.
indirectly of course.
he appears in my dreams a lot even if i go months without thinking about him or dwelling on the time i wasted on him.
every time i dream about him i feel so warm inside and excited in the dream of course.
i dont understand why i'm so obsessed with him.
my old middle school/high school friends would always give me shit about how plain and uninteresting he was and couldnt understand why i hyped him up so much. they were disappointed when they saw him cause i made him sound more amazing than he actually was.
it bothered me that he would actually date other girls and actually give them a chance but he never did for me even though he would tell me how much he loved me.
i rejected a lot of people and dating opportunities all throughout high school and part of college cause i was a moron who was waiting for him. luckily i broke the cycle with my bf. but i dunno why im so obsessed with this fuck.
i dunno why he lurks at the back of my mind or haunts my dreams.
he's not worth it.
like sometimes when i do dream about him i lurk his social media to remind myself of how much of a loser he is.
he's a collage drop out that works retail, lives with his parents, is a pothead, whines constantly about being single and lonely, is depressed, has no plans for the future, and is an overall loser. but for whatever reason my brain/subconscious wants him so badly.
>>219432>6th grade>24 years old>7 years ago
i think your problem is mental if you were in 6th grade at 17
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thats my fault on that front bruh. they can lead you on if theyre constantly reassuring you they want you and then ditch you for short periods of time repetitively.
i am seeking help im in therapy/on medication for past traumas and subsequent mood/anxiety disorders from childhood abuse.>>219522
i meant i was actively trying to pursue something with him for seven years.
now im passive and dont want a thing but muh bizarre subconscious fixation which leads to dreams and the occasional social media stalking.
Wew this thread
I've stalked people a lot. Usually they're lowkey social media "celebrities" or popular members of the sites I'd frequent, and I'd save their pictures because I think they're pretty or I'm just curious about them. That's the thing, a lot of the time I just have this indescribable drive to know. Nothing else, I just need to know. I used to have 2.5GB of photos of various people before my hard drive got rekt.
Currently though, I have a huge unhealthy obsession with my boyfriend's ex. It's been like 2 years since they broke up but I can't help myself, and it doesn't help that we have similarities. I think of her as the more successful version of me and I lowkey look up to her. It's awful to admit, I pretend it's just because I want to "know" but realistically I know that's why.
I have a whole folder dedicated to her, I have her pictures, her resume, her contact info, her social media, all the usernames she's ever used, and I archived her old blog. I started styling myself after her too. I'm hopelessly obsessed with this girl I've never met and it's killing me tbh. I even made a fake instagram account and followed her best friend to steal pictures of her and I screenshot all her best friends' IG stories with her in them to add to my collection. When she posts pictures or a story with her in them, the rush I get is unreal.
how active could it have been for it to last that long without actually doing anything? active would be asking him straight up if he wants to go out etc and asking him why he keeps flaking out and giving him an ultimatum.
honestly i think if you want to move on the best way to do it isn't to insist that he's really an asshole loser. your subconscious doesn't seem to think so. you think he's cute and interesting but he's not interested in doing anything so it's not worth worrying about. only relationships where you're both enthuiastic to be there are worth bothering with. that's all you need to focus on.
Got a similar problem. Getting stalked by an abusive ex-bf and a similarly abusive ex-friend. It gets really tiresome when people you don't want to talk to ever again keep inserting their pathetic selves into your life and showing you that they're constantly watching you and everything you do. Fucking assholes.
Honestly anon, I don't think this is about you, so don't blame yourself. This is more about them. Some individuals are just fucked up. I think certain people tend to attract sociopaths (I read that they tend to get involved with very empathetic people, as those are going to try to understand them and give them tons of chances over and over again). I think these poor sods just miss us very much, as normal people don't have patience for their bullshit and would kick their ass to the curb after the first serious transgression. It's just their way of trying to feel like they have some "control" over someone and not having to think for a moment about their own pathetic everyday lives.
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>>219687>how active could it have been for it to last that long without actually doing anything?
we'd be texting daily and basically acting like we had a thing going on. anytime i'd ask him why cant you make me your gf or if we're dating i'd get a halfassed answer like: "that's on a need to know basis darling"
like i felt like the whole thing was always on eggshells because if i said the wrong thing he was gone, and stupid teenage me didnt want to lose him.
when my anxiety gives me racing thoughts i hyperfixate on this stupid ass thing a lot. like i want to know what could i have done wrong. why did he say he wanted me when he didnt?
i know i basically played myself. i know i was a fool to go along with it. i just want to know why cant i let go?
when i think im starting to get over it, it just comes back again. i try to use logic and reason to dig myself out of it but it doesnt work cause it doesnt change my feelings no matter how many times i lay down the facts and mull over them.
i dont want to be like most the cows on here and basically cry "muh shitty childhood" but it kind of is foundation of the kind of person you're gonna be for the rest of your life. it doesnt absolve you of guilt/fault from any of your mistakes but it's a step in figuring out why you react to certain things a certain way and becoming aware of those behaviors that could potentially be faults.
Not that anon but thanks for this. My abusive ex has been attempting to harass me and stalk me and has been e-stalking me for 5 months. I've been no contact with him the whole time but no amount of ignoring has made it stop - I act like he doesn't exist. I thought I was handling it fine but it finally started to get to me and I had a couple private breakdowns last week.
I needed to hear some fucking logic about all this. Thank you for aiding my slow return to normalcy.
does this warrant another thread?
i was the original anon, and thank you guys so much for responding. the harassment put me in the hospital recently, and i just came back online all because a level-headed friend said it's best to project stability otherwise they'll feel like they've "won". it's such bullshit and i start EMDR therapy soon, and to do it correctly my therapist is saying I can't go on instagram and get triggered
by them …
You're right about the empathy thing. Both people involved are predators/narcissists, and even the weird exes/current-gfs-of-exes who copy/stalk my shit are arguably pretty fucking dead inside. none of them have actual talents to carry them, that's the unifying theme. some of them talk about wanting to help mental health stigma while antagonizing me for mine when I'm doing bad (fucking because of them), and indulge in bad mental health when it gets them attention. they don't actually suffer and they don't actually care about others. i can't stand it.
sorry for venting. i really do not understand their obsessions, especially when it comes to hurting a real person.
damn you're a fucking cunt, girl was fucking bulimic with an addiction problem and you're here counting her wrinkles like they make you any less disgusting
i love this thread for reminding me all the exes and rejected guys are such trash when i catch them lurking lmao thanks for sucking anon you're killing it
it finds all the pics tagged with your account.
you gotta link the profile and then you're free to use all the functions. I believe a facebook account is needed because it uses the commands on fb, that you can do manually from your profile (you type in search bar "Photos Liked By X" and you are free to see them).